Today..

It's 1.12am.
Suddenly I had the idea to do this.
(:



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Updated at 2.10am:
People said the pic is too dark.

So I made it red.
Red for passion.

Go me~!

Re-updated at 2.30am:
Yellow yellow dirty fellow.

*sighs*
What you get for trying to please people.

You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain..

:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

C'est la vie...

♥ ♥ ♥

Kristine. Yours sincerely...

Signing out at 1.17am...

The fray...

It's been sometime since I actually wrote something personal here.
I went through all my old blog posts,
Sometimes I don't even recognise myself anymore.
Things I wrote, feeling I felt,
I tried to understand myself.
And soon enough I lapse into this state of conciousness
Where maybe I'm not out of it yet.

Revival of the emo person deep inside of me.
I guess I was sidetracked with so many other things.
I now have a new passion for photography
I venture out trying to take nicer pictures.
I'm taking blogging on a whole new perspective
Things are running along just fine.
And suddenly I am hit by this wave again?

Will this ever end?
There is no particular reason to why I am feeling this.
I just feel this way. Down and just numb.
It's so numbing that food loses it appeal..
Comedy seems just like any other show..
Time just passes bearing no significance
*sighs*

There are things that I want to do.
But yet I am afraid of doing it.
I guess it is true,
the day you stop fearing,
The day you start living.
So I ask myself,
When will I get over my fear of intimacy?

An answer that I will not know for now.

* The sun will shine again *

So World,
wait up for me.
I am trying.

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile

:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

C'est la vie...

♥ ♥ ♥

Kristine. Yours truly...

P.S: Maybe I really don't know how to be a girl in a relationship? Maybe I'm just too stubborn? *sighs* What is wrong with me?

P.S.S: It's weird. I don't think I miss you but actually I do. It's definitely weird..hmmm

Signing out at 3.59am..

My Lurve affair with Lurve..

* Lurve story *

I have a Lurve affair. With what? I don't know myself. I guess you can call me a play girl/flower hearted person yaadaa yaadaa. I have so many lurve affairs these days it is hard for me to keep track. Ever since I was young, I've grown to Lurve sooo many things including guitars, keyboards, doing martial arts and so much more. I came to found my lurve by trial and error. I admit I am not loyal to any of these things that I once lurved but then who has not made mistakes they have regretted? Will I wouldnt say its mistakes, more like...not true Lurve.

As many Lurves I have been through, I realised most of them evolved around music. So it shows that I am very much in love with music. Only that I don't really have talent in them. My guitar teacher once told me I'm very talented but lazy to practise. So...that means...laziness will be the downfall of me. *sad* owh! tell me something I don't already know. LOL!

* My recorders *
I used to be so hardcore that I have so many of them.
Now I only have four.
All different sizes and produces different sound.
I don't remember how to play it.
It has been 10 years. T.T
My favourite song back then was My heart will go on by Celine Dion.
I was so proud of me being able to play it so well.
I would go outside my house and play beside the road.
Sharing is caring. =P

* My Guitar *
As much as I suck playing my guitar,
I still lurve it nonetheless.
Just not as much as last time. =P
And I have 3 of them at home.
Hahaha..they make a good decorative item.
Just keep it when there are kids around.
They tend to break my guitar strings all the time.
*shakes head*


* The Keyboard *
Okay. This is one of the most recent lurve that I acquired.
And now it is steadily collecting dust.
Learning how to play through youtube
is not that easy after all. T.T


* My Pet, Tortee *
Hahahaha...this I kid.
I still lurve it to bits now!
Lurve Lurve it alot!
How can you not love a creature as cute as that!
^^

Because of the attractive prizes offered by this Lurve competition.
It got me thinking..
What do I lurve in life?
And with whom/what do I have an affair with?
As many lurves I have in my life,
none of them a boyfriend..
I've finally got what I lurve the most.

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I love myself too much.
I mean.. Come on! What's not to love?
I'm so Awesome, I can't get enough of myself!


I am hot
It is so hot and spicy I have to fan myself.


I am unique
How often do you find multigrain chips?
Chips that promotes health.


I am Delicious
Just one bite you'll agree that Lurve conquers all.
But please don't bite me.
=P


I am healthy.
(Or so I think I am)
maybe just in mind then.:P
Just like the idea of Lurve.
Fat free. Best words known to girls!
*thumbs up*


There is soooo much self-love in this post.
*gags*
But my lurve for myself is an everlasting one.
I guess that is what they meant by eternal lurve eh?
=P

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Lurve is not just between you and your significant other.
Lurve also exist between family and friends.
I've decided to share my Lurves with them instead.

To show how much I lurve camwhoring.

My mum's alternative to healthier snacking.
Now she eats Lurve while watching her dramas.
=)


* My brother is in lurve. (with himself) *
It is like Lurve has a chokehold on him.


* Where oh where is my Lurve? *
I've search far and high.
Across mountains and sea.
I dream of my very own lurve life to happen.
And so far, my lurve life is at nil.
But I am hopeful :D


I guess I have to say I found Lurve with my friends.
I may not have much friends.
But I am just happy to keep these few friends of mine.
We've began back in high school.
And I am determined to keep them.
They were there with me during my ups and downs.
=)


Great sharing moments with friends.
Don't you like candid moments?
Awww...Stephie! :D


Sometimes the lurve is so strong that..

It begins to seem a little wrong.
And out of hand.
Melody and Flora.
Dont kill me please?! =D

Actually I think I am in Lurve with the idea of Lurve.
They say its better to have lurve and lost it then never to have lurve.
Really??
*sighs*

It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home before you

:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

C'est la vie...

♥ ♥ ♥

Kristine. Yours truly..

Signing out at 11.45pm..

The art of bumming around.

So I've been on holiday since end of May. And now it's July. I have officially become a professional bummer for over a month now. It's great being a bummer. I bum around so much I have a feeling my brain is growing fungus already or should I say fungi for plural. (sounds smarter right right?!!) Wtf...

Let me show you what bummers do...We bummers love to bum. Correct!

* Me the bumming bummer *
I'm so good at bumming I need to say I'm bumming the Bummer.

No I am not talking about camwhoring in home clothes...I mean you know..basically your ass is on the couch for a very long time that soon you slump in that position and the only exercise you get is your fingers pressing buttons on the remote control. Yes. I have very muscular fingers. From the casual channel surfing to the frantic typing on my keyboard. *sighs*

My results should be coming out soon now. The thing is that I don't when..and I've been dreaming about my results almost every night. Yesterday night I dreamed about it 3 times! 1st I failed. 2nd I passed 3rd I got 1st class honours. Okay the 1st class honours is way out of my league but seriously..I'm going crazy. *gags* This suspense has got to stop. Sheessh..


So what does a bummer do at home? Considering I am waiting for the new car to come, currently I have no car. And since I can't do nuts without a car (disadvantage of living so far from the city *sighs* must be my mom's evil plan to keep us all far from bad influence) I can't do much. So what do I do...?

* It time to break free!!! *

Hikaru and Flora had plans to go swimming. I had plans to take pictures! So off we went!

Presenting my models of the day..

* Hikaru-san *

* Flora-san *

Yes~ I am trying to be Japanese. =P

* Floating stars! *
But of course I can say dead carcasses if I want to as well. =P


* Doing the twist *

* Crossing the finish line *

* Flora doing the Broadway jump *


the next few pics are in sequence..

* Boy *


* Boy catched girl *

* They Tangoed *

* They Jumped *

* They fell with a splash *

My favourite pics of the day.

* Look at that splash! *
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
EPIC!!


The whole thing ended when my two models decided that I've worked them so hard that they would gang up on me to push me into the pool. *sighs*

* There. *

Flora who was holding the camera was distracting me.
I was totally focusing on it..

Suddenly Hikaru came and pushed me in.
*sighs*

Swimming pool shots as these requires tonnes of stamina.
I kid you not!

The end.

Random: Yesterday I watched the Remembering Michael Jackson thingy. All the time I kept imagining if he jumps out of the coffin. WTF. I know I have a twisted mind. If he did and started doing the moonwalk, I think I'll scream my lungs off and collapse into some form mental illness and start foaming in the mouth. After I watched the whole thing, the commentators kept saying if you have dry eyes you probably are made of stone. Sad to say, my eyes weren't wet at all. The only sad part was when his daughter spoke. I just went..awww...But I dint cry but that doesnt make me any less of a human right?!

* Me imitating Crayon Shin Chan *

I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation

:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

C'est la vie...

♥ ♥ ♥

Kristine. Yours truly..

P.S: Yesterday the 7th of July 09, I watched Die Hard 4. 2 years before as of 070707, I watched that movie as well. Weird...

Signing out at 0.07am..

Count slow...

Hey Guys...

It's been awhile since I blogged. (or at least it feels so).. So after reading Timothy Tiah's blog, I've decided to write something personal as well. 7th of July 2 years ago was the 1st time I've gotten myself into a relationship. And it didn't really go well and it ended soon after we got together. Well, so...a little less of two years later, on the 2nd of July, I found myself a man whom I am proud to call mine. :)

* Us ♥ *
Okay the picture is blur.
But that is me ok!

* Edmund ♥ *
I know! He's a good looking one.
*beams*

* Better proof *

Now don't hate me cause you ain't me. I know he is good looking. *smirks* And I am not. You know.. They've always said it. Good looking guys always have ugly girlfriends. Want a good looking guy? Start getting ugly! =P

So anyway...about this guy..I've known him for years actually...since I was 16 (I think)..I met him in a church camp organized my by auntie's church. He went to that camp as well because his best friend attends that church. And as fate would have it, it made our path crossed. Funny how he thought my friend, Pui Mun was hot back then when I was trying to get his attention. And nonetheless, it broke my heart. I was not seen. I need to thank Edmund for introducing Yong Han to me. Yong Han and I are kind of somewhat close friends through the net but became real life good friends. Years went by and in 2007 we met again. Not as in bumped into each other but through a weird but not that weird way as well. Apparently he is friends with my friend, Melody's friend. And blablabla...we all met up again.. and long story short... We are where we are now. :)

This was taken in 2007.
As seen on the picture itself.

When Edmund was better looking.
When I was thinner.
T.T
What has time done to us?

That day was the 1st time I met my soon-to-be-ex-bf
And also 1st meeting of my now still close friend Yong Han
And also meeting up with Edmund again after church camp back in 2005?
They came over for Kajang satay which I nicely led them the wrong way.
Yes I am awesome like that..

So anyway..
Edmund is leaving to UK soon.
Yes indeed.
It is going to be a long distance relationship.


* Edmund and I *


But it's okay...
It ain't that bad...
One more year, I'll be joining him in UK.
And Europe is ours to explore.
*smiles at the thought of that*

Pictures are worth more than a thousand words.
So therefore..Pictures..Shout it out!



* Sometimes words are not enough *

* Ivan (said friends of Mel and Ed), Flora and us *


* Our means of communication once he leaves *


I'll be ending this post with one last picture of us.


* Muaks *

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary,
rest your head
I'm permanent

:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

C'est la vie...

♥ ♥ ♥

Kristine. Yours truly..

P.S: I love you. :)

Signing out at 11.08pm...

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I AM JUST KIDDING!!


Now show of hands.

Who fell for that?
Now let's be honest.
Yi Han.
I know you already fell for it.
You gave me the idea to do this post.
HAHAHAHAH!

I actually shivered when I typed "Muaks"..
Seriously how can people go through life doing it?
I rather type *kiss*
Though its eeky..but not as eeky.

Edmund is a single good looking guy who happens to be my friend.
I thought this would be a rather fun pose.
=P
Don't hate me please.

I am happy to call him mine = Happy to call him my friend.
It is going to be a long distance relationship = Long distance friendship
*smiles at the thought of that* = cant wait for him to model for me in UK.

It was all a made up story okay. But some of the facts are true.


* Little photoshoot last night till 2+am..*
We're just a bunch of random spontaneous people.
And not to mention very poser as well.
So thus shots macam-betul-je! hahaha...

Ending this post with my own picture of the bridge.

Will blog about this fun random outing soon.
And yes..Edmund is actually really leaving for UK!
All the best dude..
:D

Try to understand
I'm still mesmerized and mystified with you
but its no simple plan
cuz I don't even know what to feel or do

:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

C'est la vie...

♥ ♥ ♥

Kristine.. Yours truly
(really signing out now)

P.S: I hope you guys enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed making it up. :D

P.S.S: You reckon I wrote it good enough for people to fall for it? =P (those who know us..You guys tak kira! cause...You know us!)

Signing out at 11.36pm...