:: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::

2012-01-29T02:15:00.001+08:00

Today, while cutting vegetables.

A thought came across my mind.

A thought so scary.

I thought..

"I wonder how it feels to cut myself."

"Maybe cutting myself will release the agony that I feel inside of me."

It has never crossed my mind that I'll ever hurt myself.

This is bad.

2012-01-26T09:11:00.000+08:00

I'm weird.

quirky.

I have issues.

How to deal with them?

2012-01-25T08:55:00.001+08:00

Every ounce of confident I had in me, has been ripped away by this course.

Things I thought I was good at, well apparently I am not that good after all.

And so how do I live, when there isn't an ounce of confidence left in me?

What holds me?

2012-01-24T04:02:00.001+08:00

Behind every smile, there are tears lurking.

Behind every story, there is a story not told.

This is my story.

I appear jolly but in actual fact, I feel tormented inside.

I don't know how to tell my parents that I am miserable and depressed.

I have no choice but to pretend to be me when I am no longer me.

2012-01-24T03:28:00.002+08:00

I think I maybe in depression.

Who da fuq spends 2 hours in bed, having a conversation with herself telling herself that she hates her own guts.

I get random thoughts about how much I hate myself.

How much I wish I was smarter.

How I wish everything would be different.

But I don't have thoughts of killing myself. that's a plus.

Means I am not THAT depressed I guess.

2012-01-14T09:44:00.003+08:00

Thank you, for helping me out of my dark spot.

for even trying.

for even noticing.

2011-12-24T11:54:00.003+08:00

you know what is worse than having no friends?

is having friends yet feeling as though your presence is insignificant or as though you do not matter at all.

Dealing with loneliness is one thing, to deal with being insignificant is another.

#justsaying

2011-12-03T09:47:00.003+08:00

What has happened to me?

I am such a changed person here in Bristol. I surprise myself.

I've done something I've never thought I'd do in a million years.

I spend money without much care anymore.

I club and drink like nobody's business.

I am turning into somebody I vastly dislike.

I need to remember my principle once more.

I need to remember to be myself.

I need to remember my values.

I need to not let this take me over.

This thing I call "fun"

2011-11-01T03:49:00.002+08:00

The fact that I can make choices about my future, I'm blessed. I realised that I can go anywhere in life, because I have choices.

I can be anything I want. I have so many choices but yet I am frustrated because I have that many choices. I should be blessed to have a say or rather, have control of my life to where I want to go. I am blessed and happy.

Sudden inspiration.

2011-10-31T04:11:00.005+08:00

My plan for my near future (ed 30th of October 2011):

1. Complete my BPTC (make my parents proud) Get called to the Bar in Nov.

2. Stay in the UK for summer. Work and be self sufficient. Travel Europe.

3. Come back to England to complete my Masters.

4. Apply for the Work and Travel Programme to U.S.A

5. See where life brings me from there.

6. If all fails, go back to Malaysia. Secure a pupillage.

7. Work a few years. Move to Singapore. Convert Degree.

7. Apply to all the MNCs, to get a job post in UAE.

A girl can dream. :) From where I am now, sky's the limit. I am capable of anything as long as I dare to spread my wings and start flapping. Life's too short to be sucked into the normal circle of life. To be Amazing, you must dare to dream. Nothing to lose. Just got to hit the floor and start running.

bye bye 14th of Oct

2011-10-15T12:23:00.001+08:00

So many things happened tonight.

Things I really want to tell someone.

But I think it's better to be forgotten and pretend nothing happened.

May the night of 14th of October be erased from my memories.

I'll be..

2011-10-09T19:30:00.004+08:00

In a way I work like an old car.

In social sense, it takes me awhile to warm up.

Some days I work like a charm, some days I'm just a piece of useless junk.

I have my good days and my bad days.

But if you treat me good, I'll be good too.

You can try to push me real hard, but I can't guarantee success.

People don't see me, for I am not flashy and cool.

I don't offer vanity points.

But whatever it is, my engine is well-made.

Done right, I am the most amazing 'junk' you'll ever have.

2011-09-20T06:29:00.003+08:00

So my dad is paying more for the torture I am in.

Only day 3 of my course and thoughts of withdrawing from the course is getting more persistent.

Only day 3 and my head feels as though I just hit my head real hard. Headache.

Only day 3 I find myself having no time to eat. cereals for breakfast. fried egg and rice for dinner. Amazing.

It better pays AWESOME to be a barrister. Damn you professional course!

On a random note, I applaud all Phd holders. Really Permanent Head Damage.

And oh, other than my crazily demanding course, I am alright here in Bristol. haven't really got the time to look around Bristol but.. I'll try to find time!

I miss home. Television. Tortee. My bed. Family and friends. *le sigh*

2011-09-16T06:44:00.000+08:00

I want to be a part.

Really.

Save me..

2011-09-05T05:16:00.003+08:00

Is it so hard to be happy? I am beginning to think my blog should be renamed "Realm of Darkness". Everything is so dark here. Everything is just gloomy. All is good else where. I am healthy. I am not lacking money. I don't have a perfect family but it's alright. I have opportunities that I am far too grateful to have. Why am I being such a spoilt brat?

Why can't I just be happy? It's been 2 weeks and I've been dying emotionally. I tried to drown it with loud music, booze and what my mum calls them "cheap thrills/fun". Nothing is working. I am denying what I was told. I don't believe it to be true.

It's too late to find out that maybe I was in love. Or rather is in love. Past tense will be past tense. It can never be present tense. Present continuous tense.

I realised that I have become a totally different person now. I don't know what I should do. I am beginning to say things I don't mean. Doing things I don't normally do.

Just spare me the depression. Oh Gawd..

2011-08-28T23:24:00.003+08:00

You think I am strong.

I am not. really.

Why is the 2nd time harder? Shouldn't it be easier?

Raindrops from sight..

2011-08-19T01:31:00.005+08:00

It's so hard to be in a place that reminds me of you so much.
It's just really hard.
Being in places where we created memories.
I should only remember our good times and be happy about it.

Please be happy. For me. For you. For the past Us.

Christina Perri - Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

.......................................

only so many more days until I leave.
I thought what I really wanted was to leave.
But this time, I am leaving alone.
I hope I'll be fine.
I hope everything will be fine.

Kristine, out.

L. O. V. E

2011-08-18T01:13:00.003+08:00

What exactly is love?

I find myself asking myself that question. I am a 22 year old who I am not sure if I experienced love or not. Love confuses me.

What is Love?

Is love showing each other how much you love each other everyday by posting up on each other's FB wall?

Is love buying each other gifts?

Is love spending majority time with each other?

I know I have experienced LIKE. I definitely like my Ex a lot. So much that I still check on him from time to time. And I get sad thinking about him quite often. Is that love? Love is selfless they say. But sadly I am a selfish person. I put me ahead of everything else. So am I not worthy of love?

Sometimes, when I see how much 2 people love each other, I wonder if I am ever going to be able to do the same? Can I voluntarily sacrifice for that person? Would I turn into one of those soppy sappy girls in a relationship? I'll have you know, I am not the type of girl who openly shows how she feels. I may love you, but I don't act so. Sometimes, I intentionally pick a fight with you. I am weird I know. Save me?

I may have broken hearts before. But this you should know, I don't mean it intentionally. It's because I don't know what I am getting into. And you don't know what you are getting in to if you get together with me.

My brother has once referred to me as a girl who gives love a bad name. That it is a curse to guys who somehow gets smitten by me. What he said has made me think. Maybe he isn't wrong. Maybe I do have a problem! Until then, I guess I still have to slowly figure this thing out. This thing called Love.

Kristine out!

A drop in the Ocean

2011-08-03T22:19:00.007+08:00

It's been a month since I blogged. Had my euro trip with my parents. My graduation.

Years back, seeing myself graduate was something far-fetched but now, it's done and over with. Have you ever wondered for years we work towards something and when we've reached that point, what's next? Exactly like the animation Finding Nemo, the fishes in the aquarium plotted to escape to the ocean for so long, once they managed to reach the ocean, it was a Now What?! moment.

Exactly where I am now, now what? What do I do? I've have my share of fun in Aber. I wouldn't call Aber fun as Aber isn't exactly a town bustling with fun things to do. I would say I have my share of self-reflection in Aber. I've hurt, been hurt, loved, loved by others, missed, cried, laughed for the past year. Now that it's all behind me. I'm not sure what to do.

Sure I have ongoing plans to to my BPTC but honestly, I'm not sure if it's something I should do. It's really not my thing to do it, but extra education can't hurt I reckon, though it is costing my father at least rm150k this upcoming year.

Para-gliding in Switzerland.

Night scrolls looking at Colloseum

Camwhoring with the Lourve.
And I saw Mona Lisa.

I've lived an impressive life this past month doing things majority people could only wish. Traveling and living life. In everything I do, I seek to feel alive. To feel that my life is worthy to be lived. To find my life's worth. I guess I've been too ignorant towards the value of my life. I've been too careless with myself. I should feel blessed to have the life I lead for I know it's really something. It's really something to be me. My grandmothers who are looking upon me from above would be proud of me for graduating yet would be upset to see that I feel like I need to find my life's worth.

I think I live my life in a weird limbo. When I am happy, I am really happy and easily contented. But when I am down, it feels like the World is against me and I am worthless. Maybe I am paranoid.

...

Sorry I'm just letting my brain flow. As you can see, its in a terrible mess and I don't know to feel what.

....

Stadhuy's window.

On a not related to above story, I just came back from Malacca last night with my Aber mates. I'm glad they are still the same even after coming back. Paul and Aaron are still as entertaining as ever.

my neighbours in Aber.

Mucho Love.

Sighs.. Aaron is so adorable at times I want to nom him.

The girl I saw a shooting star with. (:

Genuine laughter. (:

I'm happy most of the time during the day. It's during the night that mostly kills me inside. I don't know what is this I am feeling. Guilt? lack of love? Uneasiness? Whatever this is... It sucks. That's the only reason why I keep staying out at night.

It's been so long since I updated a long post. It's time to bid adieu. Ciao.

P.S: I have half my mind to drop my screen name: Solitary Rose. maybe it's time to say goodbye to her.

Send me away with the words of a love song...

2011-07-03T23:54:00.005+08:00

These few days, under the influenced of my PMS, there are a few thoughts that have crossed my mind.

I prefer being in UK.
I have more freedom of choice and freedom of movement.
I live for myself and no one else.
Sure I don't have my family and friends,
But I think it's this time of my life, I need to be away; alone.

I think I belong in UK.
Before going over, I thought I may have trouble adjusting.
I've never been apart from my parents.
I guess I am more independent than expected.
I've overcome my anxiety problems.
I've overcome my intimacy issues.
Next issue to overcome: Commitment issues.

UK has changed me.
For better and some, a little worse.
But I'll still have it all and not change a thing.
Thank you for everything.

...................................

If I die young
by The Band Perry

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts,
oh no,
I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 12.14am in Malaysia..

I'm sorry..

2011-06-23T20:34:00.004+08:00

Anthony Neely - Sorry that I loved you.

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And I'm so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

...................................

I'm so sorry. That's all I can say.
You'll always be my Guardian Angel
I can't say I don't feel upset over my decision.
But it's the best I can do. For you and for me.
It takes a lot to do the right thing.
If I could choose, I'd choose to be happy with you.
But sadly, somethings are just not how we want it to be.
You are my safety net, and comforting shoulder.
I know you always have my back.
Always there when I needed you.
I don't like how things ended.
But I've got to be fair to you and to myself.
I can't be selfish.
I wish you the best in your life.
It kills me to think of you with another girl.
But I guess you are not mine to have.
Please be happy.
For me, but mostly, for yourself.

Don't make things harder than it is already.
Know that I did not make this decision at the spur of the moment.
I've been thinking about this for months.
It's been slowly killing me inside.
I've finally decided to do the right thing.
You might not think it's right.
But it is right to my conscience.
All I can say now is just I'm sorry.
I'm not made for this.
I sincerely wish the best for you.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: I would take it all back if I could but I have no regrets.

Signing out at 8.55pm..

As clear as a hazy day

2011-06-13T14:10:00.003+08:00

I thought it will be clear but I'm being greeted with haze and clouds.

I don't know what to do.

Nothing feels right. Don't even know what's right or wrong.

Lost.

2011-06-07T04:53:00.005+08:00

When God gives so you many options in life, what do you do?

I'm at a loss for the blessing He has gave me. I need for a sign. A sign to point me in the right direction.

I thank you Lord for giving me all the opportunities in life. I am grateful and I know I am blessed beyond words. I know when I wish I don't have this many options, I was being spoiled and not grateful for the options in life you've given me.

I'm grateful but... I'm really lost now. All I know is that I find it so hard to leave this place I've called home for the past 9 months. It's been an amazing journey here. All I wish to do is to stay here forever.. How do I choose?

I'm going home such a different person. That I know. And I thank everyone who contributed to my growth here.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Sometimes I wonder when will I stop using my nickname "solitary rose".

Signing out at 10.01pm

Bazzinga!!!

2011-05-28T03:22:00.002+08:00

"I ask for a divine intervention where stars are aligned and rotation of Earth's gravitational pull to come together and bless upon me, the power and strength to bullshit my way through tomorrow's paper! oh please Dear universe!"

-8.21pm 27/05/2011-

My best scientific prayer ever!!

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine. BAZINGGA!

P.S: 2 more to go!!

Signing out at 8.24pm..

Living with a law student..

2011-05-25T00:09:00.004+08:00

"

Read an article entitled living with A LAW Student. Funny much.

To read it click *here*

I am going to copy and paste one statement that is so freaking true!!

"If you have upset a law student, Don’t stress, one quick way to make them (law students) happy is to buy them some stationery! Ever noticed how YLS’s (Your law student) desk looks like a rainbow had a hard night then threw up all over the desk? There are highlighters, post-it notes and sticky tabs of every size and colour. This is because stationary makes us happy. As an aside, a birthday party thrown at Office Works would be awesome, like a law student equivalent of a child’s McDonald’s party. Toss some fluoro stationary in their direction and you are likely to be forgiven."

It's so damn freaking true!! once I couldnt find my colour tabs to mark pages, I began to hyperventilate and demanded my mum to send it to me from Malaysia. Yes I get irrational when I am under a lot of stress. But then again, it is justified because I am a law student. LOL... sighs..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.s: One down 3 to go!

Signing out at 5.22pm..

Cherry Blossom

2011-05-21T09:32:00.005+08:00

Subtle beauty

Reaching out.

And so I have a friend who loves taking pictures. His pictures are not entirely bad. Some of his pictures blow my mind! But there are some, I managed to salvage and made it nice. Like these 2 pieces here. Let me show you the original picture of subtle beauty.

Original piece of 'subtle beauty'

Bet you couldnt have tell that 'subtle beauty' came from this picture eh? :) This is the art of cropping and editing.

2 of his own original shots that I really like.

I'll call it "Delicate"

Bold

(1st word that popped in my head when I saw this picture)

Ahhh my love for art and photography will never wane. Well done, my friend.

Picture credits to Yoong.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I have a paper at 9.30am and I still found time to blog. tsk!

Signing out at 2.43am..

Bummer.

2011-05-18T21:38:00.005+08:00

Life is funny.

Don't you just wish that there is a refresh button or a backspace button in life?

Then maybe it could make the World a better place. but I guess it can make World get stuck in a weird limbo every time someone presses refresh or backspace. lol

Sighs...

You won't believe how utterly devastated I am right now.

I missed my window of opportunity. This will teach me to be less cautious and just take the leap when necessary. Boo hoo!

When life gives you something you really want, just take it and don't hesitate. For regret and misery tend to bite you hard. Wait I take that back. It swallows you whole.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Ain't no loving from me this time,
Kristine.
P.S: learn from my mistakes.

Signing out at 2.43pm.

Tranquil is the word.

2011-05-16T08:13:00.004+08:00

Tranquility.

Taken by Syaza.
A pleasant girl I met a few years back in a photography seminar.

If you like what you see, please vote for her picture here http://travel.nationalgeographic.com/travel/traveler-magazine/photo-contest/entries/38047/view/ It's not any tom dick and harry competition. We are talking about THE national geographic competition. Help her make Malaysia proud. SUPPORT!

All you need to do is click on the link and just click "like" right under the picture. Easy peasy. No need to like any profile or join any membership.

I am doing this because she asked me so nicely instead of pestering me non-stop. I hate it when people pester me to vote for them or help them spread the word. I'll do it willingly if I want to and that if I think you are any good. My actions are what I believe in. In her picture, I see something I like.

God Bless.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Wasted my Sunday away not studying. great. just great.

Signing out at 1.17am..

Touch,.

2011-05-14T23:51:00.003+08:00

Currently studying about Domestic violence in Family Law.

Warning to guys out there, if you dare lay your hands on me in a menacing manner, trust in me, I'll cut your manhood away (probably not cause I don't want to give you the satisfaction of me touching it). Either that, I'll make you regret you've ever met me. You hear me. When I say you guys, I am saying it to those guys involved with my friends too. I'll make you my personal aim to give hell to. Trust in me when I say that. So... touch me, you'll die either way. Emotionally so dead you wish you are really dead.

Lay a hand on the people I care most, you ... you know what is in store for you. I did not read law for 3 years for nothing. I am not pursuing my Bar for nothing. Trust in me when I say that I will use whatever I have and to my best of knowledge, to make your life a living hell.

I don't want you to regret know me. I am nice, don't get me wrong, just don't get into my wrong book. I've learned that I've got my own back and I am not afraid to fight for whatever I believe in.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: too angered while reading. Studying makes me emotional indeed.

Signing out at 4.58om..

Aberystwyth, Wales.

2011-05-04T07:43:00.013+08:00

The place I've slowly fallen in love with.

My friend calls this place the end of the World. It's one of the farthest end of UK. The west coast of Wales.

The place where I am now. Population less than 20,000. There are more sheep than humans.

There is only one main street where we can do the so called social activity "shopping". The amount of shops that sells clothes is about 10? (I can actually only think of like 5-6 shops)

There is nothing fancy here. Nothing we can really do. The coolest hang out place is the pier with a few pool and snooker table. The most happening club is the only club here, Why Not?. Wait nooo.. there is another club, Pier Pressure. It is a student town. So I guess its not weird that there are two clubs here despite the lack of everything else. What it lacks in, made up with the character of the town, and the people who live here. Everyone is absolutely nice. Town is so safe you can walk around alone in the middle of the night and not feel as though you are going to die any moment.

Sometimes when I look at the pictures of my friends in other parts of UK partying, I wonder why I chose this quiet town to finish my degree. I may not have such memories, having fun in town, but we make the best we could with what we have here. I've made such good friends here.

We don't do much, but hang out and talk. We talk a lot. We play a lot. This quaint little town has offered me the best experience I could ever asked for in my life. When I first arrived here, the first month was difficult. I was unhappy with the way the University ran. I was bitter. Complaining about their slogan "best student lifestyle". Little did I know, I was living that day by day only I was blinded by everything else. My hatred. My jealousy towards the fun my friends were having wherever they are.

The beauty of this place only emerges about Spring. Where the skies are always blue. The sea is dark blue. Strong winds now and then. Pretty flowers blossoming everywhere. There is so many things I can say about this place.

Only so many words can truly describe this place. I have to say being here has been an awesome experience. I can't thank my friends enough for being my friends. For being who they are...

All I have to say is that the best part of Aberystwyth is not only the sand, sea and sky. But the feeling you get when you are here. I feel in touch with myself. I can spend hours at the beach alone. I've learned that being alone is not sad. Silence is not solitariness. I've learned to come to terms with being alone and enjoying the silence I get. It's not about the vulnerability but the comfort. I'm comfortable with myself enough to want to spend time with myself and no one else. I've come to embrace things that I would not have embraced if I never came here.

All I can say is that, I'd pick you again, Aber, if I was given the chance to pick where I want to complete my 3rd year law degree.

I'd come back for you again, that's my promise to you. You may not have the Trevi Fountain as Rome does, but my promise towards you, revisiting you in years to come, is as good and as sure as my death.

For you, a thousand times over. :)

suitcases of memories..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Told ya I get emotional when I study.

Signing out at 1.25am...

Who will love me for me?

2011-04-28T21:23:00.005+08:00

JJ Heller - What love really means...

He cries in the corner where nobody sees

He’s the kid with the story no one would believe

He prays every night “Dear God won’t you please...

Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me?

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me?

‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means, what love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day

She’s the woman whose husband has run away

She’ll go to the gym after working today

Maybe if she was thinner then he would’ve stayed

And she says…

Who'll love me for me?

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me?

‘Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone

He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done

He utters a cry from the depths of his soul

“Oh Lord, forgive me. I want to go home”

Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside

And it said “I know you’ve murdered

And I know you’ve lied

And I've watched you suffer all of your life

And now that you’re listening I’ll, I'll tell you that I...”

I will love you for you

Not for what you have done or what you will become

I will love you for you

I will give you the love, the love that you never knew

I will love you for you

Not for what you have done or what you will become

I will love you for you

I will give you the love, the love that you never knew

.........................................................................

This guy.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 3.10pm..

Happiness

2011-04-25T03:39:00.006+08:00

Every wish I get to make, I make the same wish all the time. Every time I pray, I pray for the same thing. Happiness. I don't wish for anything more.

Happiness presents itself to me in many forms. But I find myself turning away from those happiness. Why do I do that? I don't think that happiness is not good enough. I think I need better "happiness". But then again, isn't happiness just happiness? I asked for something simple. Why can't I accept it as simple as it is? But instead, I mock what God gave me by turning away. By commenting that it's not good enough. Imposing standards that I did not impose when making that wish. How could I reasonably justify myself for, in the first place, I did not specifically asked for the things I'm asking for after it has been given to me?

I just realised I am being unfair. Unfair to God. Unfair to myself. Why can't I be happy with the happiness given to me?

I must learn to embrace what is given to me. I can be happy with tiny flowers on the ground grown out as weed but as beautiful as a rose. Why can't I be happy with what is given and look on the positive/bright side? In the end, isn't happiness what you make of the situation given to you?

I should. I can and I will.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: Finals are around the corner. And the fire in me isn't burning yet. Help me God.

Signing out at 8.47pm..

Smile.

2011-04-22T18:58:00.003+08:00

nyahahahaha!

exclusive relationship.

Can't tell anyone what it is about, I have no choice to blog about my excitement.

teee heee!

Day #1

2011-04-12T06:58:00.005+08:00

Dear blog,

I'm turning into a vegan. I may love my meat but seriously, recently I have been doubting my love for meat. I have cravings grilled aubergine, avocado and spinach nowadays. Ahhh.. gone were the days all I crave for is fatty pork dishes.

Not only am I turning vegan, I'm slowly turning into an organic health freak. My favourite shop here in town is Harrolds & Barrette. A newly opened Organic Health food shop. It's the bestest place ever. I'd kill time in it going through all the stuff they have. Today I bought a chocolate oat drink and some dried ORGANIC cranberries. Cost me about 4 pounds. 1st thought, hey! it's cheap. After converting, Hello! I just paid RM20 for a drink and some dried fruits. T_T

I brought a friend to a little cafe that I love so much here. He looked at the menu, he said "the food here are so healthy I feel sick looking at it." When the food came, he saw the amount of salad that was on his plate, he said "I've never had so much salad!" It was pretty funny to hear it at 1st, after awhile it hit me. Am I really that health conscious now?

Sighs.. thanks for listening '"diary".

picture taken from thekitchn.com

My morning breakfast routine: Cherry tomatoes and oats topped with mix fruits and nuts. Yums!

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 12.09am..

Turn the lights low...

2011-04-08T08:51:00.003+08:00

Nothing pleases me more than sunshine, flowers, blue sky and great company; friends.
♥

Lesson learned: Do not have scandalicious moment with a guy in a club that you bump into often. It gets awkward. I would know, trust me.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine

P.S: finally a friend who enjoys photography as much as me. :)

Signing out at 1.55am..

To many more first-s!

2011-04-03T10:36:00.004+08:00

Today.
Decided to experience clubbing in the UK.
Got butt molested by 2 Caucasian and 1 good looking Asian.
Got boob molested by a Caucasian.
Grinded with a Caucasian.
(Honestly speaking, despite fear, I felt quite turned on. =X)

Lots of 1st.
Here's to a night I will not forget.
Till Amnesia rips it away!
*Cheers!*

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 3.40am..

How much it hurts...

2011-04-02T02:59:00.004+08:00

All the words in the World means nothing,

When I can't tell you how I feel.

kills me inside
keeping it all in.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 8.08pm..

2011-03-31T18:22:00.002+08:00

I miss you.

Unuttered words.

2011-03-29T08:02:00.006+08:00

All these while I love my alone time. In my previous post, I said that I should never travel by myself anymore. I wish to take that back. Despite all the hitches, traveling alone made me come to a few epiphanies and somehow I could see the road ahead of me clearer.

Things become clearer when I look into it.

Questions that popped in my head:
Is it too late to change things?
Will it never be possible again?
What if I can't turn things around?

Epiphanies:
I definitely want to go back to Malaysia.
I want to make things work.
I definitely underestimated myself.

One of the worst feeling to have is definitely having so much to tell a person, but you know you shouldn't because its the right thing to do. *sighs* I guess I can only comfort myself in "if it is meant to be then it is meant to be".

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I miss you.

Signing out at 1.37am

Amsterdam 2011

2011-03-25T05:37:00.007+08:00

Arrived in Amsterdam at 8.30am. I seemed to have passed out on the plane as soon as I got on the plane because when I woke up the plane was already landing and I am already in Amsterdam. I guess not sleeping and being out for 24 hours without showering and much sleep took a toll on me. Met up with my bro but was too tired to feel overly excited to see him.

Reached our B&B. Took a shower and soon I was knocked out on the bed. Woke up at 1pm and soon we were on the way out to explore the city by foot. (my feet are throbbing as I am typing this. T_T)

Snapshots of Amsterdam 2011 Day #1

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We were blessed to be greeted with such good weather. Sunny yet not to hot and awesome blue sky. People here are really friendly. Like seriously.. Everyone is saying hello. Maybe they don't see much Asians around. =P

Sun was generous with it's warmth and the people were eager to bask in its glory. It's so nice to just plonk yourself down just about anywhere and just talk. Maybe sip some wine while doing it. My bro and I even fancied ourself a bottle of rose wine (still in the fridge. too tired to drink)

My most prized picture of the day. I can't even begin telling you guys how much I love this picture. I captured a moment here. 2 girlfriends sharing a laughter while cycling. This is life.

Dit is leven

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine from Amsterdam.

Signing out at 11.00pm

note to myself.

2011-03-24T10:32:00.003+08:00

currently in gatwick airport london waiting for my flight to amsterdam. i have been travelling for 19 hours now. trying to stay awake until then. all i have to say to myself, if you ever do this again, at least don't do it alone. do it with a friend. if you are doing it alone, dont be so selfish with yourself!!! arghhhh! bus, tube, walk, tube, bus, and soon plane. physically and mentally tired even before my holiday starts. real great i tell ya. but soon i will be in amsterdam!! windmils and tulips. oh today i literally gave birth without me knowing. imagine yourself on a bus. you get off the bus, you take the tube and notice people staring at you weirdly. after a long walk in public only i noticed i was soaking my blood. my own blood. my jeans bloodied. fml. kthxbai. until i come back! -peace out-

Cause baby you're all that I want

2011-03-17T05:31:00.003+08:00

Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin' can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Ya - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

N' baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've bin waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Ya - I'll be standin' there by you

....................................................................

Because tonight, this is my song.

Here's to the nights we felt alive. *cheers*

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 9.49pm..

Heaven..

2011-03-08T05:11:00.007+08:00

I am perfectly aware that I don't blog much these days.
It seems as though I'm occupied with things and many thoughts.
Many thoughts that I think are not suitable to be penned down.
For I think its better to not know sometimes than to know.

Ignorance is bliss.

.........................................

Interesting reading I found:

A man, his horse and his dog were traveling down a road. When they were passing by a gigantic tree, a bolt of lightning struck and they all fell dead on the spot.
But the man did not realize that he had already left this world, so he went on walking with his two animals; sometimes the dead take time to understand their new condition…

The journey was very long, uphill, the sun was strong and they were covered in sweat and very thirsty. They were desperately in need of water. At a bend in the road they spotted a magnificent gateway, all in marble, which led to a square paved with blocks of gold and with a fountain in the center that spouted forth crystalline water.
The traveler went up to the man guarding the gate.
“Good morning. What is this beautiful place?”
“This is heaven.”
“How good to have reached heaven, we’re ever so thirsty.”
“You can come in and drink all you want.”
“My horse and my dog are thirsty too.”
“So sorry, but animals aren’t allowed in here.”
The man was very disappointed because his thirst was great, but he could not drink alone; he thanked the man and went on his way. After traveling a lot, they arrived exhausted at a farm whose entrance was marked with an old doorway that opened onto a tree-lined dirt road.

A man was lying down in the shadow of one of the trees, his head covered with a hat, perhaps asleep.
“Good morning,” said the traveler. “We are very thirsty – me, my horse and my dog.”
“There is a spring over in those stones,” said the man, pointing to the spot. “Drink as much as you like.”
The man, the horse and the dog went to the spring and quenched their thirst. Then the traveler went back to thank the man.

“By the way, what’s this place called?”
“Heaven.”
“Heaven? But the guard at the marble gate back there said that was heaven!”
“That’s not heaven, that’s hell.”
The traveler was puzzled.
“You’ve got to stop this! All this false information must cause enormous confusion!”

The man smiled:
“Not at all. As a matter of fact they do us a great favor. Because over there stay all those who are even capable of abandoning their best friends…”

From the book; The Devil and Miss Prym.

Extract taken from Paul0 Coelho's Blog. *here*

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What could I say that your ear has not heard
What could I write that your heart has not felt…
For what ever it means it matters
For all of it is true….
I love everyone of them
And all of them are you…

-taken from Paula's comment on that same post-

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I can't say more to protect our sanity.

Signing out at 9.17pm..

I have a friend in you...

2011-02-27T11:50:00.006+08:00

I hear things about me all the time.
But none compared to what he said to me.
I prepared myself for all the horrible things I might have to hear.
How I'm sloppy or dirty..
Or how I'm self centered.

It all began with me asking him,
What do you think of me?
Another friend asked why would you ask such a question?
I said "When I decided to ask him that question, I'm prepared to hear whatever he has to say about me."

And he told me after this other friend left.
He said the bad thing about me is that..
I cannot be alone. I can't live alone.
I thought to myself that's my bad trait??
Different and surprising indeed.
But it is not wrong.

And that's not what that caught me so much until I had to blog about it..
Few days back, he thanked my friend Joyce for no reason at all.
He thanked her a few times.
Joyce was bewildered.
I thought he was just being his usual cheeky self.
Messing with people's mind.

But he told me tonight...
He thanked her..
For keeping me company.

I am so touched by it.
I don't think he meant it in a bad way but in a nice way.
I'm just so.. gobsmacked about it.
I think some part of him knew I'm sad.

I can't deal with it when I have to eat alone.
That is the one thing I can't tolerate.
I am beginning to do things alone.
Slowly but surely..

And I thank this friend of mine.
For truly being my friend.
Thank you, Paul.

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 4.14am..

Staying strong.

2011-02-26T21:55:00.006+08:00

Please don't make it harder than it already is.
Trust me when I say this.
I am trying my best.
Not to do what I am not supposed to do.

I'll keep the promise I made to myself.
Know that its not easy for me.
But I'm doing it for the greater good.

Yours sincerely,

Kristine.

Sky's the limit..

2011-02-23T09:34:00.003+08:00

Today.

Paid deposit for my LPC course.
Confirmed.
LPC and Masters.
You're mine.

18 again.

After my Masters, I'm going to take it to the sky.
Private Pilot License!
You're mine next!

There is no stopping me!
Bring on the heat!

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 1.37am..

I wish you Enough...

2011-02-19T01:37:00.005+08:00

I wish me enough...

The following is plucked from Paulo Coelho's blog *here*. I found it soooo meaningful, I need to share it.

*play this while reading it*

Recently I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.
Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the father said, ‘I love you, and I wish you enough.’

They kissed and the daughter left. The father walked over to the window where I was seated. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but I could not refrain from asking:
‘When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I wish you enough.’ May I ask what that means?’

He began to smile. ‘That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.’
He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more.
‘When we said, ‘I wish you enough,’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.’
Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more..

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting…

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good- bye.

..............................

When I saw the last word "goodbye" I kind of teared. This is really beautiful but listening the song Never Alone by Lady Antebellum just totally.. magnifies the whole feel of it. I'm blessed to have supportive parents, (Dad financially. Mum Morally and Spiritually) and my brother who listens to me rant and would in the end still call me retarded. I guess they are the few certainties in life that I will always have. Friends who stood by me through it all. Through the storms in my life and have been my sunshine. Without you to grow with, what would I be? Friends that I have made along the way on the journey here. Those whose friendship with me did not wane though it was tested. I thank you.

In my life, there are always things I wanted non-stop but deep down I know I'm blessed. To those I've lost touch with. Thank you for blessing my life with your presence, though short, it was still remarkable and memorable. To those, who I can see our friendship last, may I wish us all enough to stay the way we are till the end, or as long as we can.

A solitary rose is beautiful,
On its own, mesmerizing.
A bouquet of beautiful roses,
It becomes amazing; magnificent.

I've never been alone, though physically I was, but I know, I'm never alone.

Thank you.

[sounds like my eulogy to myself.]

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Torn at crossroads.

Signing out at 6.00pm..

A rose.

2011-02-18T06:07:00.003+08:00

"Like the rose bud, the heart is protected by layers until one day when all the layers are worn out, what's left is the bare heart waiting to be shattered."

-Kristine-

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Thoughts of you seems to be visiting me.

Signing out at 10.10pm..

Time for women to chase their own men..

2011-02-15T03:39:00.006+08:00

Valentine.

by Kina Grannis.

Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Love, I don't need those things
I don't need no ring
I don't need anything
But you with me
'Cause in your company
I feel happy, oh so happy and complete

And it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Yeah, it's a good excuse, put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I...
I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving me kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving sweet kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

Oh, be my Valentine

Would you be mine?
And make me the happiest girl in the World?

(hypothetical scenario)
.................................................

Valentine's day.

I don't get the idea of it but I don't ask why. For me, I am not interested in knowing how it came about. I accept it as a day that people decide to show their love to another. I don't see why people should be so bitter and argue otherwise. If people want to show their love, then so be it. If you don't agree with it, haven't you heard of a good saying "If you have nothing good to say, then don't say it". I see it as a day where chances can be taken. Dreams of boys (or girls) can be realised (or shattered).

Arguments: It's too commercialized. It's a business orientated celebration. It's overrated. It is true!

Whatever it is, girls will be girls. You can reason with a girl how flowers are a waste of money. and even if they agree with you and say yes flowers are a waste of money. Give her A stalk of rose, I can tell you she'll be a happy girl nevertheless what she said earlier. Girls are hypocrites. Sad but true. Often we don't say the things we mean, complicated we are.

Girls, or rather the female population, are in love with the idea of love. We are hopeless romantics. Sighs... we truly are but it does not make us weak. We can turn this around by being romantic ourselves. Why must we count on men to be the romantic ones?

In other parts of the World, it's always men who has the responsibility of doing something. It's the 21st century, so girls, if you have someone you like and you want that person, go get him. Rejection is nothing compared to not doing a thing about it. In Japan and South Korea, females give men chocolates for Valentine's day.

So here is my drink to you wonderful women who dared to make a move. Dare to be different. *cheers*

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: received my 1st ever Valentine's gift. Thank you. ♥

Signing out at 8.19pm...

The festival of Love..

2011-02-14T09:13:00.008+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY 2011!

May you love birds out there be filled with more love.
And less arguments.

And for singletons,
To stay strong, for, OUR time will come.
It's not a day to be SAD (Single Awareness Day)
It's a day to be Awesome?

Just because I love this song. ♥

"Though we ain't together, may our loves remain."

Dedications to my friends in LDRs

Stephanie, Pui Mun, Lyi, Joyce, Dix.

May you all stay strong till the end.

(:

Never let love be washed away by incoming tides.

Just promise me you'll stay..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 1.17am..

Them boys.

2011-02-12T20:47:00.003+08:00

I am beginning to like what I see.

Them boys playing football, sweating.

Flowers sprouting sporadically.

New buds on trees.

Warmth.

Insects coming out to play.

Some kinda annoying while some are pleasant to look at.

Ahhh... life's getting better I'd say. ;)

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 12.49pm

Swept away

2011-02-06T08:00:00.003+08:00

Where wind has no mercy

Threatening waves..

Peace at risk.

Easily engulfed in it's terror

I was swept away by the wind.
Traveling at 57km/h..

Crazy wind!!

Cause baby you're like firework..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 1203am...

When you are not in Malaysia...

2011-02-04T05:15:00.004+08:00

I guess my new look did not achieve the what I was going/hoping for.
I wanted to look "high fashion".
Sophisticated.

I ended up getting "CUTE"

yes.

Cute.

Arghhh...

Well better than weird. =/

Now I look like a Chinese with Bangs.

Embracing my Nationality I am.

...................................

Did I tell you I love my new compact?

I don't even need to edit my pictures anymore.

:D

I celebrated Chinese New Year by the beach

With bonfire and marshmellows.
Different indeed.

Happy Chinese New Year!!
Gong Hei Fatt Choi!

Hong Pau can wire over. LOL..

I celebrated the 1st day of CNY by attending a 9am class. Went home sleep. Woke up. Exercised. Went for 5pm class. Ate dinner. And here I am now.

What I'd give just to be around my friends.
Laughing and talking.

Sighss..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 9.23pm..

Amour...

2011-02-02T04:15:00.006+08:00

I've been so occupied with exams and everything else after that, I've kinda stop participating in my Project 52 weekly themes. Sighs...

Anyway... New year (Chinese new year) New Look!

Presenting the new me!

Bangs!

I know I've told a few people I will NEVER EVER have bangs ANYMORE..

Here I am...

Eating my own words. LOL!

Cause I think I look so cool here. :P

Showing off my new bag.

And earmuffs!

Kthxbai!

Ohh Happy Chinese New Year!

This year I am celebrating it with a bonfire by the sea.

During Winter. Yah I know..

So cool yet WTF at the same time.

Heeeeeeee....

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Ahhh all the glorious food during CNY.. ommm nomm nommmss...

Signing out at 8.28pm

Passion.

2011-01-28T03:31:00.003+08:00

Passion,
Constructed my mission.
Fueled my desire,
Eternally burning my fire.

Passion,

My homing missile,

My North Star in the sky,
Drawing me close though its far.

Passion
Is what I have
It's what keeps me going.
For you I'll never have.

Collection of songs - Camila

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Project 365 put on hold due to exams.

Signing out at 7.51pm..

Blind-sided

2011-01-22T10:14:00.002+08:00

Tonight I feel terribly alone.

Who do I turn to?

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Signing out at 2.20am..

Golden Ratio

2011-01-22T02:37:00.004+08:00

Theme is still macro.

Pic #4

Going nuts over nuts.

Pic #5

2010's version of a 2 pounder.

I am beginning to like this idea where I don't need to talk much but just post up pictures. :D

Btw, have you heard of the Golden Ratio? Where you section something into 2. and one part of that section is double the length of the other. You get the ratio of 1.618... a friend told me about this ratio. He said he wants a girl that has that ratio. LOL...

Sadly.. I am not a 1.618.. I am near to it.. still a 1.6 though. xD You measure your body is 2 parts. Upper body = belly button up. Lower body = belly button down. The theory is that your legs are supposed to be twice the length of your body. So you take you total height and divide it with the length of your lower body measurement.

Take me for example, I am 167cm.
My legs are 100cm.

167/100: 1.67

and that is how you get your ratio. And... in conclusion is.. I dunno what is the conclusion. Maybe it makes you golden.

All you gave me was love..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 10.07pm

Hope is the Death of Me..

2011-01-19T20:42:00.006+08:00

Day #2

Theme: Macro Shot

Macro shot of the reflection off my White Blackberry. You can see my toy tortoise on my stripey cup and all my other junk.

Day #3

Theme: Macro

My handwriting. One subject down. Two more to go. Don't ask me how it went if you are my friend. Thanks..

Uploading 2 at once cause I forgot to upload the 2nd pic on my blog. I uploaded it on FB on time though. lol

You know I sometimes hate hope and expectations. In my life, I've never expected anything good from my exam results. This is the 1st paper I've done that I feel truly depressed about. I had hope and expectations with this paper and now it is down the drain. They lift you up, then they crush you like an insignificant bug.

Sighs...

This is me swallowing my pride..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine

P.S: I think I caught a flu bug. I don't feel too well. :(

Signing out at 12.53pm..

Day #1 of 365

2011-01-17T11:19:00.008+08:00

Instead of the random project 365 last year, which i did not partake, I am planning to partake in this weekly themed project 365. It consist of 53 weekly themes which I will have to follow. Though it might not be everyday of the week. But I'll try to keep it weekly at least.

This will encourage me to shoot more definitely.

Click *here* if interested.

And for the this week (17th-23rd of January), the theme is MACRO. and this is my macro shot. :)

Day 1 of Project 365

A rare 2 pound coin I came across.

I am in the business of collecting coins. :)

Shot with my new Sony WX5.

Thanks for the birthday present!!
From my mum and bro.

This camera takes very crisp pictures.
I zoomed in this picture.
Not pixelated nor grainy.
Crisp!!

Sexay!

I'd go back to December..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 3.47am...

Let me ask you this..

2011-01-16T09:06:00.004+08:00

Making. Money

or

Living. Life?

Sure you think its easy to choose, everyone would go for the latter, but without money how to live life, one have to ask themselves. Sometimes it feels good to be earning your own money but sometimes you feel like you are missing out on life by working.

It's like choosing good working prospects here in UK or going back to Malaysia where your friends and family are? In a heartbeat I'd choose my family and friends back home, but when I think more thoroughly, realism is a key to life. I sigh at realistic me.

Decisions Decisions Decisions.

I hope I don't regret my decisions.

I won't give up my life here for "love". I don't want to be those people who later in life questions how their life would be if only they carried on as though "love" did not happen for my faith in love isn't as high as it should be for a female. I have an abnormally low sense of faith, hope in love and everything else that makes romance. And yes, I am those type that might never have a romantic story to tell. *sighs* Realism is the death of Romance.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 1.16am..

You don't wear my chains...

2011-01-15T08:37:00.006+08:00

Tonight, silence is deafening.
Tonight, light fails to shine.
Tonight, dedication cease to exist.
Tonight, there is no purpose.
Tonight, I'm an empty soul.
Tonight, is not a good night.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: Choosing love and happiness, does it make me courageous?

Signing out at 12.46am..

Cause you find yourself...

2011-01-11T12:37:00.007+08:00

I had something to say but I got distracted by the side bar (MunMun)... Now.. I totally forgotten what I wanted to blog about. Sighs...

.....................................

For most of you who know me, you know I am not the dieting type. There was never a need to diet. I see food, I eat food. The guys here are calling me "dude" and "bro" because I eat like a man and also kinda act like a dude at times =X I dunno to see it as a compliment or an insult. 2 days back I started a healthy eating diet plan which I have to say, is failing. It looks something like this. (pictures of food in this post does not correspond with what I am saying. I'm just hungreh now)

Morning: cereals

One of the best starters I have ever tasted.

Lunch: heavy lunch. Means eat anything I want!

Ratatouille with Fish

Dinner: lighter meal means I can have anything I want but less than what I usually eat.

It was so rich I could not finish it.
Died in richness.

Supper: Cereals

Why is it failing?

Reason numero uno.
When I wake up it's already lunch time. I eat cereals for lunch. Then dinner, I swear to you I am eating for two people. =.="

Supper: Chocolate cookies in the middle of the night.

Reason 2:
It's a very vague diet plan thus in my mind there is a constant debate whether its less than I usually eat. Is it healthier? =.=" I've been lawyered by my stomach!

Well so much for being healthier. Can I say I've tried?

Sometimes I think I am just born into this World to eat. Grandma always said she enjoy feeding me when I was a baby because I drink my milk very fast. Champion!! And as a kid, my mum says I eat everything. Greedy child I was. Blessed I was to never have been those obese kids. ^^v

But I'm not young anymore, my metabolism rate isn't racing. Thus, in order not to be taunt fat by my brother (yes brothers are creatures of nasty honesty) I shall embark on a journey! A journey that will change my life..

On 2nd thought..

Maybe I will start this journey after my exams... I am too stressed not to eat... T_T

Chubbeh Bunneh Readeh!

Ommm Nommm Nommm Nommm...

The day I stop being greedy,
Is the day I find Love.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I've been meaning to blog about how blessed I am today and my birthday but well... you know.. something always comes up. :P

Signing out at 4.51am..

Well Butter my Bum!!

2011-01-09T13:26:00.003+08:00

Have you met............

Kim Bum? Don't laugh at his name or I will keel you! *protective*

It's 5.30am and I am high from all these Korean Awesomeness..

MUN MUN!!! I can't believe it after 2 years, I am still so hooked on them Koreans and you lived my Korean dream even though for a brief moment.

I laid my head on my pillow ready to sleep and The song goes... "I've got sunshineeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... On a cloudy day!!!" And next thing I know, I grabbed my laptop and started blogging. Sighs...

Random much. But this Korean guy here is so good looking he should be put behind bars for being too gawddamn good looking!!!! And he is my age. Younger than me by months, but well, OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *faints*

*cries* I want some of these awesomeness please!!!

Holy shit, my friend told me here he thinks I am classy and elegant. I think I just threw that out the window. Sighs... Pardon me..

A girl needs her fanatic moment. Thank you.

*skipping the usual signing out method cause too sleepy to care. YAY!* Bums**

Staring at the Sun..

2011-01-03T20:54:00.006+08:00

Sometimes, you get blinded by the sun yet you still want to continue staring. It's those inevitable things that happen in your life. Like how you know that you should not feed the ducks, but you still do. Like how you know you should not be studying last minute for your exams but you still do. Same goes with time, you know we should not waste time but we still do. So what time is priceless, we still waste it. Then we regret but we still do it. We never learn. T_T

2011 - me.

Sometimes we say time moves slowly when we want it to move fast. When we want time to slow down, it moves too fast. And so.. I guess its true.. Time and tide wait for no man. And it's been a year since I last had my amazing birthday party.

And I'm turning 22. I've lived in this World for 22 years. What have I done that is so significant? Nothing.. But I've grown to a better person (or I'd like to think so). This year, I've chosen to have a quiet affair and just reflect on my life. Seems like just yesterday I was still a kid and don't give a damn about the impact I would make on the World. Now, I think of every action I make. Can we turn back to the time where I just did whatever I please and not have a care in the World?

I guess it's part of growing up. Feeling (being) responsible to everyone and everything. It gets tiring to care. And I am just at the start of my adulthood. Blehh... I'd like to add, DAMN! Time is moving too fast. Before I know it, I'll be married having kids run around me with wrinkles even the blind can see! =X

I don't want to grow up!!

Whisk me away to Neverland. 2nd star on the right and straight on till sunrise...

Bring me back to yester-years.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 1.30pm..

The End is near..

2010-12-29T01:16:00.022+08:00

2010 is over in just a blink of an eye. If there were any important years to remember in my life, it would be this year. I've truly loved, truly cried, truly missed, truly hurt, truly cared. I did the best I can do in every situation I did. :)

21 things that happened in 2010, my 21st year being on this Earth:

--@ Had a huge 21st birthday bash

My Family and Aunt Helen's Family during my Big Bash.
Kinda feels like a wedding if you know what I mean.

--@ Went to Bali with my brother

--@ Went to Edmund's 21st Birthday Bash, Met Felix who changed my life

--@ 1st time got made drunk by a guy just because he wants to know me (damn you Felix!)
--@ Got infected by shingles which left marks on my body. battle scars!

--@ Went to Phuket with shingles, got seriously sick over there and was sick continuously for a month.

Phuket's James Bond's Island.

--@ Went to mamak at least 5 times a week a month prior to leaving Malaysia
--@ Started baking. ♥

--@ Had a surprise farewell where my dream party came true. Thanks to Melody and Felix!

Surprise party with Polaroids and Helium balloons! <3

Thank you my sayangs! :)

--@ Said goodbye to my grandmother who almost cried for not being able to send me off. Little did I know it would be my last time seeing her.
--@ Left for UK to continue my studies

--@ Grandmother passed away 2 weeks after I came to UK due to gas tank explosion.

My 1st and last camwhore pic with her. :(

--@ Started cooking very frequently, I have to say I may have talent! :D

2 Dishes I'm good at.

--@ Broke up with Felix but we're still friends. :)
--@ Experienced my 1st snow fall. Made snow angel, ate snowflakes, had countless of snowball fight and made a snowwoman.

--@ Had frost bitten fingers and toes. T_T Hurts like crazy!

--@ Started working as a waitress in a Thai restaurant. Boss and Lady boss really nice

--@ Wore my tailor made suit and felt awesome in it!

Should suit up more!

--@ Been to London 3 times, Manchester and Nottingham (Met up with Ujin there). Yet to travel out of UK.

Old Trafford

Cheng U-jin!

--@ Caucasions think I am Korean or Japanese thus making them talk to me.
--@ Made friends with a Golden retriever (?) named Malicki and cheated/pranked squirrels in Hyde Park. :P

--@ Celebrated Christmas in London (got my lens cap stolen from me) and experienced the well-famed Boxing day shopping.

Cycled around London on Christmas Day. That's Trafalgar Square

--@ Got so independent, I shopped alone in the whole sea of humans on Boxing day. I make mummy proud. :D
--@ Made awesome friends. :) Paul, Lyiana, Joyce, Priya, Bruce, Amin, Jin, Jones, Aaron and Dixon!

What's life without friends? <3

The most memorable ending to my 2010 would be this memory!

--@ Was asked by a French guy in Uniqlo whether I was interested in a Couple's Special Project with his German girlfriend. He asked me if I was Korean or Japanese. I said I'm Chinese Malaysian. He said.. "oh it's okay. I still like you. blablabla...Anytime and any place it's good." I was caught off guard (blur) and asked him.. "Do what again??" He said "Sex!" I went... O.o? He said "Any time and any where is just find. Do you want my number to think about it?" I wanted to laugh but I kept my cool and said "Ahhh.. It's okay. I don't need your number. I don't think I'd be interested in it. Thanks." He smiled and said "Ahhh... it's not your cup of tea eh? But thanks again." and walks away.

Slut much?

Either I look like a damn slut or I look like I am damn good in bed. Hopefully its the latter! hahaha..

This concludes my Awesome 2010. Oh yeaa babeh!!

2011, I can't wait to go back to Malaysia to see my friends. Miss them loads. To random hang outs to talking to each other heart to heart. I shall see you soon! :) You know who you are..

Especially the 2 figures beside me in this picture.

Looking forward to see what the year ahead has installed for me!

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Things changed but I don't feel the changes.

Signing out at 1.09am..

God makes changes...

2010-12-23T09:00:00.002+08:00

The Sun shines! Looks like I won't be having a lonely Christmas. Will be spending it in London. Let's hope it will be a great experience. 1st Christmas abroad and away from my family. Boxing day better be good.

Merry Christmas Everybody!

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 1.02am..

Postcards from Aberystwyth..

2010-12-22T02:10:00.006+08:00

Postcard #1: The Sun don't shine till clouds part.

Postcard #2: Constitutional Hill

Postcard #3: Quaint town

Postcard #4: Serenity..

Postcard #5: The Pier

Postcard #6: The town of Aberystwyth

Postcard #7: Seaweed and Sun.

Reasons why I love this little town to bits. It's not much but it's enough. Contentment is a way of life. :)

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Good things come to those who wait..

Signing out at 6.23pm..

Have a HoHoHo yourself!

2010-12-17T11:56:00.004+08:00

The days are a blur now.
Could barely tell the day from the night.
But one things for sure,
The year is coming to an end.

From Aber with love,
I wish you guys a merry Christmas in Advance,
Just in case I don't blog by then.
Have yourself a White Christmas.

I'm having an early White Christmas! :D

Charlie loves me.

See how his head tilts towards me. :P

Love replenishes..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: It will be my 1st white Christmas but spending it alone. :(

Signing out at 4.02am..

I'm not perfect...

2010-12-10T08:31:00.003+08:00

You know how you would listen to all the heart breaking songs, love songs and you always feel that you know how that person feels? Feeling down and everything.. There are a few songs that I felt that it was made to be sung to me.

This song is the most current song I think it is made to be sung to me. Really nice though... still makes me rather sad listening to it. But nice song nonetheless. I'm beginning to like Bruno Mars a lot!

Who is
Bruno Mars

All I Was Perfect For The Circus
If She Dared I'd Do It
Love Makes You Supid
I Gave It up
But I Guess It Was Not Enough
Cause She Never Seemed Satisfied

Oooh I Know I'm Not Perfect
But At The End Of The Day Who Is Oooh
She Wanted Someone that's Perfect Ok
But Can You Tell Me Who Is?

Ooooh Oooh Ooh
Ooooh Oooh Ooh

She Set The Bar Just Above The Stars
A Rocket Couldnt Reach It But I Still Kept On Reaching
She Watched Me Try Atleast A Thousand Times
If She Loved Me She'd Stopped Me But Nooo
Oooh

Oooh I Know I'm Not Perfect
But At The End Of The Day Who Is Oooh
She Wanted Someone that's Perfect Ok
But Can You Tell Me Who Is?

I Saw Something Worth My Future
So Right So Wrong
In My Mind I Would Tolerate It But I Guess I Was Wrong?

Oooh I Know I'm Not Perfect
But At The End Of The Day Who Is Oooh
She Wanted Someone that's Perfect Ok
But Can You Tell Me Who Is?

Ooooh Oooh Ooh
Ooooh Oooh Ooh

.........................................................

To you,
I dedicate this song to myself on your behalf.
imy.

For a moment I thought I found my unicorn.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine

Signing out at 12.37pm..

Rises up like the tide..

2010-12-08T07:43:00.004+08:00

I might have been tune deaf to the rhythm of love all these times, but if any song were to uplift me and make me believe in love, it would be this song right here. :)

To you, I miss you. (:

Rhythm of Love
Plain White T's

My head is stuck in the clouds
She begs me to come down
Says "Boy quit foolin' around"
I told her "I love the view from up here
The warm sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love"
We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love
My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung
She's got blue eyes deep like the sea
That roll back when she's laughing at me

A picture I feel happy looking.
(:

She rises up like the tide
The moment her lips meet mine
We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love
When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry
And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you make love so fine
We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the music low and sway to the rhythm of love

Damn.. I have the urge to take artsy Love shots tomorrow. :D

el amor..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: to say I don't miss you is a lie.

Signing out at 12.04am..

3..2..1.. EveryoneConnect!

2010-12-03T03:19:00.012+08:00

Back in Malaysia, it felt as though time flew. The time here in Aber however seems to travel at a slower pace. But here I am, still thinking that its already December. Inevitably the year has come to an end. Near end.. Makes you wonder what have you been doing all along doesn't it? Did I live my life how I should be living it?

It's been a year since I first heard of the band Bunkface singing their song "through my window". A year ago I was wondering what is with the hype of this song? And it has been a year since TM launched their EveryoneConnects campaign thus throwing Bunkface into the limelight and road to stardom.

What does EveryoneConnects even mean? I guess its as simple as it's name. It means that we are connected to each other. In a way living the true spirit of 1Malaysia. TM wants to be closer to it's client and thus the best way to do run a business is to be client-orientated. The EveryoneConnects website is very youth orientated. The built of the website is for TM to get closer to the younger generation. Figuring out what we want and what we need. Yay for our Awesome generation!

They have recently enhanced their website. I think the amount of people's plea for TM to be better is somewhat answered. We need TM to be Awesome so that we can be awesome as well. The new website now is now more interactive and filled with activities ready to welcome 2011.

Features of TM EveryoneConnects:

The Stadium.

Why it is awesome?

Hint:

This is why!

"The Stadium is designed as a sports locker room. From here, fans will be able to
access “hot off the pitch” features which showcase news, highlights, interviews and videos
from Manchester United TV or MUTV. These rich football content are offered by TM in
collaboration with Manchester United as the Official Integrated Telecommunications Partner
of Manchester United in Malaysia. Another feature of the webpage is a game play board that
also serves as a chat room for fans."

They couldn't have chose a better team. :P IMHO!

The Jamming Garage.

Why it is awesome?

Hint:

BUNKFACE!

Friends that just started off jamming in secondary school rise to stardom. I guess they are the true story for every new band.

"The Jamming Garage emulates aspects of a garage music studio. This studio
features “Camp Bunkface”, where fans can get all the information they need about Bunkface,
listen to their songs and watch video previews as well as exchange music information."

What can I say? Our generation takes music really seriously. We live and die for it. If you are a big fan of Bunkface, it's something you might want to keep an eye on.

Sini Maa

Hint:

Big movie buff? You have found the right site!

"Sini Maa is a playful webpage for movies. This webpage highlights movie trailers and videos
available on Hypptv (UniFi), and Hypp.tv (web channels) including video clips from Pilih
Kasih, the acting reality program sponsored by TM. The webpage also features Movie Buzz,
a chat room for film buffs."

Open House.

Hint:

Like Malaysian food, we get plenty of variety. Chinese, Malay, Indian, Mamak, Fusion, Italian, Western... Just like open house, it's the day we are generous and kind and play the good host.

"To provide further opportunities for fans to connect, communicate and collaborate, Open
House is the perfect place for fans of EveryoneConnects to extend various messages and
wishes for birthdays, festivals and celebrations. The Open House is designed to appeal to
all Malaysians and features video wishes, a wish board called Spread Some Love, and a
selection of personalized e-cards for the user’s selection."

....................................................

In a way they are trying their best to cover every aspect of a youth's interest. I say give them an A for effort. 2 weeks ago they had their anniversary event (which obviously I could not attend).

The anniversary celebration event was graced by Dato’ Sri Zamzamzairani Mohd Isa, Group
Chief Executive Officer of TM, Rozalila Abdul Rahman, Chief Marketing Officer, TM and Imri
Mokhtar, Executive Vice President, Consumer, TM. In the picture as well, Bunkface.

The crowd. Fuhh,.. that is a big crowd. I know a big crowd when I see one.

The event was hosted by Hunny Madu and Ben of Flyfm who hyped the crowd up with their funny antics. I am trying to figure out who is that pretty fair chick. Hmmm...

www.everyoneconnects.net <--- click it already. It's quite cute. It feels like the Sims a bit only we can't have babies with each other and start a new life. xD

feels like G6..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 10.59am..

Icy baby..

2010-12-02T01:03:00.004+08:00

I'm as sensitive as a snowflake these few days.

Slight heat, I will melt away into nothingness.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: Toughen up will you?!

Signing out at 5.04pm...

Of sun rays and snowflakes..

2010-12-01T09:30:00.006+08:00

Many things have happened ever since I came here. Many good, some not so good. Today I went out at night alone to have a walk. Back in Malaysia no way in hell would I ever do that. That is like spelling out my own death. But here, I feel at peace. I feel safe.

I left my house without anyone knowing (though to think about it, its stupid. I should at least let someone know) It was snowing. I can still tell you after a few days of snow, I am still amazed by snow. The way it falls. The way it lands on you. I stood under a sky filled with stars. Staring at how the snow was falling. It was one of the most serene nights of my life.

I saw a defined snowflake. It's not fake. It's really as beautiful as you see it in pictures. I sound kinda delusional.. but I really want to take a pic of a snowflake. I still got another 2 more months. I can do it. :)

[After reading THIS I think it's quite impossible for me to capture a snowflake. It's highly technical. Gahh... but with luck maybe I can. ]

Wanted to clear my head and do a little thinking but I guess I managed to clear my head. I practically was intoxicated by the beauty of tonight for me to think of anything. It has been a good night.

I stood on an empty field, staring at the abundance of stars with a friend's presence. And I thought, I think I maybe in the best place in the World. I would not change anything in my life because I know whatever that had happened in my life led to tonight.

Thank you life. :)

Surrounded by a million people..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I'll do better here soon.

Signing out at 1.55am..

Melting snow..

2010-11-27T21:03:00.003+08:00

When it hits you, you feel like in this World there are miracles.
So caught up with its beauty
You do not notice its painful coldness
How it affects you later.

Then you get the transition period.

It's still beautiful
Underneath it all, lies danger.
How you will fall and break pieces of you
And in the end it hurts you more than ever.

I guess beautiful things do not last.
You try to preserve it as long as you can
But in the end, it will all go.
It will never be the same as you 1st saw it.

like a sledge hammer..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: I forgot how much it hurts.

Signing out at 1.15pm..

Grenade..

2010-11-26T09:04:00.006+08:00

I think I have split personality.

I want to have fun. But when I am having fun suddenly I feel like being alone. What is wrong with me?

And then when I am alone, I wallow in self pity. Feeling lonely and rather sad. :(

Winter sure does do funny things to people. On the other note, I saw falling snow for the 1st time in my life. So awesome. ♥

Take a bullet through my brain..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I am sooooooooooo impressed today.

Signing out 1.14am..

My search...

2010-11-21T00:21:00.006+08:00

Unicorn.
It's something I want.
It's something I am searching for.
It's something I know I won't get.
In search of that unicorn,
My unicorn.

* Soaring together *

The more I think about it,
the more I feel I will never find it.
A unicorn is perfect.
No horse is perfect.
I could end up with a mighty fine horse.
But it won't do
Because it's not my unicorn.

* The one that looks at me despite being in a crowd *

And so I ask you..
Should I continue my search for this..
Rare, non-existent magical creature
Or should I lower my expectations..
And just find myself a good horse?

* Maybe I am no Princess for the Unicorn *

Why must comfort come with strings attached?

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 5.49pm..

Highlight of my London trip! ♥

2010-11-19T10:32:00.005+08:00

Believe it or not...

I am almost in platform 9 3/4!!

*grins*

I'm a witch!

Just like Hermione Granger! :P

I took this picture in the morning... (in King's Cross if you don't already know)

And by night, I was transported to Hogswart (aka Leicester Square in London). I breathed the same air Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint was breathing. Omg.. It was a whole new level of star-struck-ness. OMGsss!

Daniel Radcliffe.

He seems small. T_T

Emma Watson's Awesome Lace dress.

I was wearing 3 layers of clothing.
It's amazing how she could withstand the cold.

Rupert Grint.

So cute.........

Ron Weasley's father.

I can't think of his name now..
But you know who he is.. lol

I saw them here..

The World Premiere of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

*emo*

I still haven't watch the show yet.

But I saw the actors. HAH!
Take that.
Who is laughing now.

Now if only I could really go to Hogswart.

Misleading actions..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: London is awesome!

Signing out at 2.47am..

All I can say is that..

2010-11-09T07:27:00.004+08:00

..I don't know what I want.
..I don't know what kind of person I want to be.
..I don't know how to be a good girlfriend.
..I don't know how to be a girlfriend.
..I don't know if I feel good if I make that decision.
..I don't know how to make a decision
..I am honestly too brutal.
..I am selfish
..I want everything.
..I want it all to be my way.
..I don't know what to do.
..I miss you but I don't.
..I care for you still but not as much.
..I am doubting myself.
..I feel lonely at times.
..I really really dislike winter.
..I really want to go home now.

I myself am a strong believer that LDR does not work. If it works, you guys are awesome. But majority always fail. Now I find myself trying to work against the odds and my beliefs. This is one hell of an irony.

God, A sign please?

What do I do?

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: I'm home sick.

Signing out at 11.39pm

Autumn's dream.

2010-10-29T04:05:00.006+08:00

Feeling: Ambiguous

Autumn's breath,
Fallen leaves,
Colours of warm,
Chilly breeze.
Warm glow of the sun,

When everything fall into place,
Into it's exact place on earth,
It creates a beauty so magnificent,
I hold my breath; afraid to breathe,
In case it will all disappear when I exhale.

No More Wishing
by Hayley Taylor

wake up, I'm trying to show you
I wanna come clean
you mean more than you should mean
but I'm willing to be

the one that you put on a pedestal
the one that you see in your dreams
the one that you hide your true self from
the one you want to please

and I know that it's wrong to want something
so false and so fake
it's not that I want to fix you
I just want to get my way

cause you're the one that I put on a pedestal
the one who keeps coming back to me
the one that I gave my whole heart to
the one who makes me believe

I want a love that's side by side
I want a love that holds me tight
I want a love that feels like a dream
but when I wake up, he's still there with me

so put me up on a pedestal
give me everything I need
but give it to me so completely
that there will be no more wishing
no more wishing
no more wishing
no more wishing

.............................................

It has been awhile since I've found a song that I really like these days. I keep listening back to my own favourite songs. So today, I'll share with you a new found nice song. :) Enjoy it.

I'm torn.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: I think I may be gaining weight.

Signing out at 9.22pm..

Torch me up will ya?

2010-10-23T10:52:00.009+08:00

Blackberry

Torch

= ??

Torching blackberry-s will get you a really yummy jam. Adding sugar to it will just enhance its flavour. Think of Celcom as the sugar. We can't live without sugar can we? So a Blackberry Torch is like a jam without sugar. Sour much? Add sugar aka Celcom, you'll get the best damn thing ever. Not to mention its healthy! You won't find a better or more perfect match.

With the Celcom Blackberry plan, you will tremendously be blessed. It will not blow a hole in your pocket. And I mean it. With Celcom Exec 50 plan, all you need to do is pay a fee of RM50 to get the utmost awesomeness - Best deal in the World! (because I am in UK I can say that with confidence) with the widest coverage. The plan comes with no string attached. Well there is one commitment though which is to... be committed in its low monthly fees of RM50! You will also receive one month free broadband service. Nothing sounds as sweet as the word Free.

Not only that, this plan automatically will give you up to 30% discount. The more you use, the more discount you get. It's like shopping in a hypermarket. Same thing, but different price (a significantly lower price). So why not Celcom? Sugar me up now!

Blackberry Torch. Just the name itself makes me hungry. *thinks of jam* You know what goes well with jam? Loads of things! Like me for instance. I can be bread, waffles and even pie crust just to compliment it. Or should I say it will compliment me? Either way, Blackberry Torch, Celcom and Me will just be awesome together.

Hi. I am bread.

Blackberry Torch is a blend of the best berries you can get. The Blackberry Bold and the Blackberry Storm. It has the Bold's Qwerty Keypad and the Storm's Touch Screen features. There is no need now for iPhone4. With the Torch I get an iPhone and a Blackberry. It's a win win situation. No need to argue which is better, Apple or Blackberry. I get the best of both worlds this way.

And have I mentioned that the Torch has the best CAMERA OF ALL BBs??!

This is a picture taken by the Blackberry Bold 2.

This is the University of Bristol in UK.

Look at the clarity of the picture. I am so amazed by it!

Sorry I have to elaborate on the camera more. I'm a photographer enthusiast. There were times I was utterly bummed out that I did not bring my DSLR out. And thank God my friend uses a Blackberry Storm. I used his Storm to take pictures the entire day. Heck I even blogged about how awesome Blackberry is in this post *here*

Picture taken by the Blackberry Storm.

This is the Old College in Aberystwyth, Wales.

How can any photographer not like a Blackberry's camera. And both of that camera is just a 3 megapixel cam. The Torch has a 5 megapixel cam! Imagine how mind-blowing the pictures will be!!

Dunno how a Blackberry Torch 9800 look like? Fret not! Kristine is here to google! :P

Its a slide phone?? OMG! Smooth operator indeed. *winks* This is beyond my wildest fantasy. A smart phone that slides, which happens to be a BLACKBERRY (omg?!) with a kick-butt camera. I can only daydream about it.

The Blackberry Torch 9800 is going to be launched on the 29th of October. And if you sign out there and then at the event with Celcom, Celcom will give you NOT-THE-PHONE-BUT-ALOT-OF-OTHER-THINGS for Free!!! Buy the phone and sign up for the Celcom Exec Postpaid plan and get yourself a free Jabra bluetooth set, Micro SD 8GB card and Energizer Portable!

I love how the Blackberry Torch 9800 makes me hungry and salivate over it.
I like how the phone makes me want to get my hands on it.
I like how it makes me feel like saying bye bye to Samsung Galaxy S and Apple iPhone.
I like how it makes me feel like singing out loud and dance in the rain.

I dedicate Joshua Radin's "I'd Rather Be With You" to the AWESOMEST phone ever. The Blackberry Torch 9800 with Sugar!

Sitting here, on this lonely dock
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now, listen to me say:

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

Say you feel the way I do!!

Now would you grant me this? I know I am not really that technologically savvy. But I promise you I will be one soon just for you, Blackberry Torch 9800!

For more information about the Celcom Postpaid Plans, head on to http://www.celcom.com.my/celcomexec/blackberry/bbtorch9800.php.
To pre-register and purchase the BlackBerry Torch 9800, log on to http://www.celcom.com.my/celcomexec/blackberry/bbtorch9800_register.php .

please be mine?

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 5.04am..

Autumn's fallen leaves...

2010-10-23T08:38:00.010+08:00

Autumn leaves fall
Fact of life.

You don't know how it is for me. I don't want to be sad in this place. All I want is to be happy. All my life, every year when I get to make a wish, I wish that I would be happy. Every time I pray, I pray to be happy. All I really want is to be happy. And I thank my family and friends for blessing me with laughter all this while. And to you, for bringing me happiness back in Malaysia.
I feel bad if I were to be honest with you. But if I bear with it, I feel sad. If I listen to you and do what you want, I know you will be happy. But I will be miserable. If I do what I like, I would be happy but knowing you won't be happy, I won't be happy at all.

All I can say that I have been unhappy for a few days now. I put on a strong front but by the time night comes, I can't help but to feel unhappy. I feel like whatever I do, it doesn't feel right. I can safely say that I have been happy. I admit this is a different life, but I feel genuinely happy. Walking to class, I would see the true beauty of Autumn. Leaves fall in abundance. It looks like a scene I would see in a movie where leaves fall like how snow would fall during winter. It actually puts a smile on my face. Despite the cold harsh wind, when I catch a glimpse of a rainbow or I see leaves falling, I realise that there is true beauty in everything.

I just want to say that I have to be strong here. I have no one but my friends here. 2 days back I woke up to myself saying "Oh I am not in Malaysia". You say its hard for you when you are the one back at home with your friends and family surrounding you. Have you thought about it for me? Every time I think about you and your insecurities just because I have tonnes of male friends.. I feel depressed wondering what is wrong with me? Why can't I have female friends?? Or maybe I just suck at making friends? Do I need "Making friends for dummies"?

I know when I tell you the truth about things, I am hurting you. Either way one of us will get hurt. It's either you or me. Last night I told you that the reason why I want to come to UK is to be independent and to experience new things. I want to change! I want to live a different life. I want to be a better person. You might think that I am being inconsiderate just because I am selfish and I still want to do what I want. I am still young. I don't do it now, when will I do it? I want to go club with my friends, you told me straight you don't want me to go. I don't know how to please you. I'm going with a bunch of female friends. I am finally happy I have a few female friends here.

There are a lot more things I want to say but I just don't know how to say. I've typed so much out but I have deleted them. Cause whatever I typed would make you seem like a horrible person which you are not. I know you have my best intention in mind. I'm sorry I can't be better to please you. I just want to say I have my own needs to. I really don't know what to do... There are times I realised I want to drown myself in work. When I am in class I don't think about other things. When I do housework like cooking, I don't think about how I will only go back to an empty room at night. I dread the nights. I wish day would come and whisk me away.

Autumn

leaves fall away..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine

P.S: Sorry for the depressing post.

Signing out at 2.33am..

Look how they shine for you..

2010-10-18T05:42:00.004+08:00

How is it that by eating my own food I feel home sick? Either my cooking feels homey or my cooking is so horrible I wish my mum is around to cook for me. Sighs...

My meal today.
Braised pork and eggs, stir fried spinach, stir fried bok choy and ginger spring onion fish fillet.

I realised there isn't anyone who will pamper me when I am sick. Or when I'm bored I can't go mamak with my friends.

It's been awhile since I've been listening to songs. I think songs play a strong role in my emotions. Songs make me sad. Songs I've had fun with with my friends. Songs that reminds me of past memories.

I have many regrets..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine

P.S: What is this thing that I am feeling?

Signing out at 11.15pm

Teenage dreams

2010-10-17T08:09:00.008+08:00

Ahhh it's been almost a month I have been here. I have to admit it was rough in the 2nd week. I knew the day would come my mum would leave me and go back to Malaysia. It was so sad. Thinking about it makes me sad still. Seeing my mum cry. I think she might miss me more than I miss her. heh..

With my grandmother's passing after 2 days my mum left was another blow to me. I cried for days. But eventually I stopped crying and I am glad to announce to you, I am doing pretty fine now. Getting used to being independent. I just mopped the kitchen floor and washed the bathroom today. Wooots! Felt like it was a productive day despite wasting a good few hours wondering the town. Hello Dorothy Perkins, my new fave shop in town. :D

Aberystwyth is a small little coastal town in Wales. It's really at the edge of the UK. No kidding. This place is nice as there hasn't been any case of racism. Never encountered it yet and I don't want to encounter it as well. I've heard stories and they sound terrifying. It is called a student town as most of the occupants here are probably students of the Uni itself. LOL.. I can walk around town and if I randomly poke a person, that person would most probably be a student studying here.

Random statue.

2 post ago, I wrote a very distasteful post. Spitting out all my ire. Sadly the person still causes much grieve to my household. A thing I can't seem to figure out how to fix. I don't think you can fix a person. But definitely that person is making it unpleasant for majority of us here. But sad story aside.. I am here to share.. a few awesome shots I took today with Paul's Blackberry Storm. That is some awesome phone I tell you. BB's camera sho awesome. *teary eyes* The day I decided not to bring my camera, God grants me such an Awesome with a capital A day. My Nokia E52's shitty camera could not be relied on. But BB's cam... *drools*

The Old College

Awesome structure it has

Such a blue sky!

Old college is located on the sea front.

Awesome much?

Come on.. you have to admit
It's a pretty damn good camera by now!

Ruins are good for emo shots. :D

Gi-normous mushroom!!

3 years ago - me.
(this is not taken with the BB)

Now - me
Same jeans.
I am disappointed to how I have up kept myself
I've got the muffin syndrome. :(

But I am still the same me.
Living.Life.
A little more edgy.
More confident.
A little more mean.
But generally still nice.
(:

I don't know how many of you know that I love to watch How I Met Your Mother. But if you watch it too and love it, give me a high 5 and don't leave me hanging! :D I am going to play "Have you met........"

Paul!
Who is the owner of the Awesome Blackberry Storm.
Really nice guy, doesn't have FB.
My housemate. :)

My friends.

And these are my friends I hang out with the most.
All Malaysians.
Satu perkampungan.
We are bonded by where we are from.

♥

So put your hands in the air..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: I don't know what to do with you.

Signing out at 1.37am..

iTalkWhoa is here to stay..

2010-10-17T03:57:00.006+08:00

Is Raya over already? (Lol! I sound so bimbotic)

I dunno how long a Muslim celebrates Raya (I think its one month no?) but damn.. TMNET sure does love rewarding us just because it is the season of happiness. Season of maaf zahir batin (forgiveness).

iTalkWhoa is offering an extraordinary offer to us who has to celebrate this season away from home. I am not at home and I am not Muslim but you know what.. I'm happy I live in Malaysia.. I get to enjoy the privilege as well. I'm calling home a lot. :D

From the 1st of September to 31st October 2010, all iTalkWhoa users (INCLUDING ME!) gets an extra 20% worth of air time. This extra talktime will be automatically credited to you as long as you reload/top up from the above mentioned date. Tee Hee... the wonders of technology..

ITS FREE MONEY!!!

If you top up RM50 you get RM10 worth of free talk time. If you top up RM30, you get RM6 worth of free talk time. And if you top up RM20 you get RM4 worth of free talk time. If you do use iTalkWhoa quite often I would advise you to just top up RM50 immediately. It's not like your credit will expire anyway. :P

And you know what?! I just found out this awesome thing! You can now use your credit to buy things ONLINE! And by online I mean all the TMnet sites listed below. LOL! So cool right? You can buy songs and games! The amount will be deducted from your iTalkWhoa account. Just make sure you have enough credit. Nanti kang insufficient funds, malu je. xD

Hypp Tunes (www.hypptunes.com.my)
E-Browse (www.ebrowse.com.my)
B-SmartXpress (www.bluehyppo.com.my)
Games Zone (www.hyppgames.com.my)
MUTV online (www.hypp.tv/manutd)

Where to get top up? any shops that that the iTalkWhoa sign! :D So hurry go get your reloads not before 31st of Oct 2010.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

Signing out at 9.48pm..

Word!

2010-10-13T03:09:00.006+08:00

No one likes a know it all. I hate it when you are all talk and no action. Ya feel?! If I was a bold person, I'd tell you to efff off.. But luckily for you I have some patience left in me. You comment about everything. This and that. Not please about this and that. When I let you do it, my gawd it was my worst experience ever. Unless you are planning to cook, please don't comment about how I cook and how I do things when you cooking taste horrible. You comment about the ingredients I use. You know what.. you comment too much. I don't give two effs about your opinion. Go tell someone who really cares or listen.

It is easier to be the bitch. Its hard to coop everything inside. I was thinking you were going to cook. I sprained my wrist I decided to cook something simple that doesn't involves me moving too much. You wanted fried bee hoon. Fine. Not only did you not cook, you came in halfway and started commenting on things. I asked you to cut the cauliflower, you pointed at another person saying you can't do it while the person is occupying the chopping board. I thought you were smart and innovative? End up I had to cut the cauliflower. And then you watch me cook. Halfway almost done you ask me if I needed help. Sure.. what a nice person you are offering your services when its almost done. Thank God I had another helpful friend who may not have cooking experience at least he does his best to lighten my burden.

I knew it wouldn't be easy living with other people. But seriously... Less talk, no work is more bearable than talk a lot and no work done at all. I know you want to study a lot. wtf.. then why do you think I am here for? Learning culinary arts is it? I need to study too right? It's because of my other friends I bear with your comments and continue cooking for you. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't give two flying effs to cook for you. I rather cook for myself. Arghhh...

......................................................

Sorry about all the frustration above. Its just I can't find anywhere to release my anger. I'd do it on facebook but I don't want to be so transparent or else living together would just be harder. Lets just hope he doesn't read my blog. lol..

I am still alive in land far far away. Still coping with living with others as you can see. Living with my parents are a breeze compared to this. On the bright side, my parents have just bought their air tickets to come for my graduation next year so... YAY! I can't wait to see my mum. ^^

Well since all I talked about earlier was about my cooking "situation" I guess I might as well just share some pictures of the food I have cooked so far here. :P

Chinese Fried Rice

Fried Rice Vermicelli Noodles ala Hokkien

Rice with steamed eggs, steam pork with preserved vegetables and stir fried bok choy

Rice with onion omelette and ABC soup.

Roast sausages and potatoes with baked beans and stir fried vege.

Roast chicken leg and mash potatoes with mushroom sauce.

Roasting my drumsticks. Noms..

And my dear Felix, sorry I vented out on you. I know I shouldn't be like that when I know you are happy you passed your exams. I'm so sorry. I'm really frustrated with my damn wrist and I don't know why my mood turned bad. Sorry again and congrats on your results. Sorry I am a horrible gf.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: Its the season of sickness in Aber now.

Signing out at 8.45pm..

Tribute to my idol..

2010-10-02T01:24:00.007+08:00

I found it hard to pay attention in class today. British accent, different methods and worse still, my heart and soul is back in Malaysia.

I got a call yesterday that my grandmother had passed away. It came as a blow. Somehow I knew it might happen due to her accident but deep down I was still hoping for the best. If you are in Malaysia, you might have read on the papers about a gas tank explosion in a house in Malacca. My grandmother was injured in the blast. She suffered 1st degree burns but due to her age, there were complications. I'm just glad my mum managed to go back Malaysia in time to see my grandmother before she left Earth. If anything happened to my grandmother, and my mother wasn't there because she was in UK with me, I would never forgive myself. I want to go back to pay my final respects but classes are starting and I knew my grandma would have opposed it even if she was still alive.

As a child, I was afraid of her. Being my maternal grandmother, she was the strict one compared to my paternal grandmother. Thus I wasn't really close to her until I became much older. The last memory I had of her was on the day before I flew off. She almost cried blaming herself for being old and not being able send me off the next day. I nearly cried because I was so touched by her emotions.

* My 1st and last camwhore pic with her. *

Who knew that when I get back to Malaysia next year after completing my degree, she wouldn't be here anymore. If I knew this was going to happen, I would probably not want to leave Malaysia at all. I am trying to stay positive and try to do well here. I want to do this for her. But as for now, all my thoughts are negative. All I can think about is how I want to go back to Malaysia and just study back home.

My heart breaks when I think about my mum being all sad and I am not there to be with her. I hope my mum is fine. I hope this year would swiftly pass me by. I hope that my grandma is up there smiling down on us, with her husband beside her.

Popo, I wish you are healthy and happy up there. Rest in Peace. You deserve it after being such a strong fighter for your family all these years. I only wished I have half your strength to live this life.

R.I.P Elizabeth Wong
1.10.10

I love you for raising such an awesome daughter, my mother.

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine

Signing out at 6.42pm..

New Beginning!

2010-09-30T22:32:00.006+08:00

Hello guys!

If you still remember me, I'm still alive!!!! Been in my uni for a few days now. Definitely different from Malaysia. This will just be a short update because.. well I am lazy. LOL~!

Big Ben says hi too! :D Haven't really taken much pictures in Aberystwyth, Wales. So pictures of me in London will just have to do for now. xD

St. Paul Cathedral's wall.

The Eye of London.

Houses of Parliament.

Me and Beyonce.

I could be the next Asian Beyonce man!

Me and mum at a 4D show!

So awesome! lol

Camwhored with Tom Cruise. lol..

So buzz me if your are in UK! I'm living in a house where everyone is a Malaysian. So much for making new friends. =/

3/5 were my classmates back in Brickfields. Lol.. hilarous much.

Super trooper..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..

♥ ♥ ♥

Much love from UK,
Kristine.

Signing out at 3.46pm (UK timing)

Bon voyage!!

2010-09-18T15:25:00.003+08:00

It's today. It's tonight. I'm leaving. Here I am sitting, waiting for the time to come for me to go to the airport. I feel strangely quite at ease. Maybe because I haven't really settle in with the fact I am going. I hope I dont cry at the airport. =/

Thanks to those who have already sent me farewell messages. Thank you to those who is about to send me to the airport as well. Thank you everyone for creating awesome memories with me! I'll be back next year!

United Kingdom. HERE I COME! Prepare to be overwhelmed by my awesomeness!! (or the lack of it)

Much Love,
Kristine..

P.S: Flight takes off at 8.25pm

Signing out at 4.10pm

Do you know that...?

2010-09-14T17:37:00.008+08:00

I bet you didn't know this..

I studied in Brickfields Asia College from my A levels until my 2nd year in LLB (Bachelor of Law). And if you are to google search Brickfields Asia Colleges under images... You will see a picture of me in the 1st page of your search! LOL!

Look.. that is me! (2nd row, 2nd pic from the right) Camwhoring.. *shakes head* What a nice way to promote BAC. ahahaha.. 9th pic out of the top 10 pictures of BAC. Woots... xD

* This was me back in 2008 *

My my.. time sure flew.

okay! that's all for randomness today. Thank you and goodbye! :P

ENjoy this song! Dont you think Sam Tsui is so awesome?! Wooot! <3

Dynomite...

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: 4 more days to go!

Signing out at 5.43pm..

2010-09-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

OMG!

One more week left in Malaysia!

Thanks for the memories.

Storming I-City with Colbie Caillat's Begin Again.

2010-09-06T18:14:00.006+08:00

I-City.
I have seen so many awesome pictures taken from that place.
I just have to applaud them photographers.
Cause that place really isn't that awesome.
And I paid RM10 to enter that place.
What a rip off!!

Begin Again
by Colbie Caillat.

I can't get you out of the sunlight
I can't get you out of the rain
I can't get you back to that one time
'cause you and me are still recovering

So let's just try to cool it down
The fighting is feeling like flames
And let's just try to slow it down
We crash when we race

Oh this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again

No - I never wanna fall apart
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes - I now we said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not to late to take them back

So before you say you gonna go
I should probably let you know
I never knew what I had
I never knew what I had

See, I look for you in the morning
It's that where my mind always goes
And I can't wait to get to the evening 'cause that's when I want you the most

So let's just try to cool it down
The fighting is feeling like flames
And let's just try to slow it down
We crash when we race

Oh this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again

No - I never wanna fall apart
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes - I now we said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not to late to take them back

So before you say you gonna go
I should probably let you know
I never knew what I had
I never knew what I had

But I know it now
I wish I would have known before
How good we were

Is it too late to come back
Or is it really over
If its really over
Then this is not the way that it
Should end its the way it should
Begin its the way it should begin, again.

To the new couple.
Cheers~*

..........................................

Today could make it to the top 5 worst days of my life. I spent 45 minutes rounding Midvalley's car park looking for parking. After 30 minutes, I wanted to give up and cry. First time I want to do things on my own I failed to find parking. The day I decided to grow up and be independent, I lost my parking ticket and had to pay the RM50 penalty. *sighs* I got escorted to my car by the security guard. I don't know whether to be proud I got personal protection or I should be sad I am treated like a convict just because I lost my parking ticket. *sighs*

May this be the LAST bad day in my year.

.....................................

Thank you Felix, Melody and everyone else who came to my surprise farewell party last Saturday! I can't say thank you enough for planning this and making my dream party come true. Helium balloons, polaroid pictures, cupcakes and awesome company. Thank you!! *hugs*

* Love is in the air *

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: 11 days more to go..

Signing out at 7.05pm..

What a whole new low..

2010-08-31T22:03:00.005+08:00

In a previous post I once wrote the signs that you are getting fat. You can read that post *here* Today I found a mother of all signs that will blow any of the other signs away.

Screw the "I can't fit in my clothes anymore" signs. That is nothing compared to what I am going to tell you.

Soooo... Today I was shopping, and I decided I needed a new bra because I not only gained weight but grew in size.My old bras make me feel as though I am wearing something that's trying to kill me with a bear hug. So of course I needed a new bra to accommodate my new size (ONE sign definitely to notice to see if you have gained weight. You cant be a bigger size without gaining weight. Its humanly impossible)..

To cut the story short, I told the lady the size I used to wear and now because of my weight gain, I have to wear a new size. The lady looked at me and ask me this "Are you pregnant?". WTFFF!! And she looked at my tummy!!!

I was stunned for a moment. Then with a slightly higher than usual tone I answered her "NO LAH!".. I kept it to myself for about 15 minutes. Then I told my brother who of course laughed out loud immediately. (It's a bad idea to tell your brothers such things)..

Sighs... Can't it get worse than this???! I have laughed at this countless of times in comedies. But now it has happened to me. AM I REALLY THAT FAT?! FML!

Not only did that happen today.. I was in Body Shop shopping, and I dropped one of their make up items on the floor and it smashed to bits. I had to pay RM70 for something I can't use. Sighs..
Talk about bad luck eh? For the rest of the day, everytime I touched something my brother would ask me not to touch anything. In fact I dropped another thing but thank God it was made of plastic. T_T Even my aunt had to tease me about my clumsiness. :(

Oh yeaaa...

Happy Birthday to you Malaysia!

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much sadness,
Kristine.

P.S: 18 days more to go...

Signing out at 10.19pm..

Numbered days..

2010-08-29T22:24:00.004+08:00

It's amazing how children's mind work. How we think how thinks work or why does it work that day. Thus the saying "Children says the darnest thing" is so true.

Last time in the long journey back to my dad's hometown during the night, I find myself staring at the stars and the moon a lot. I always wonder why are they following me? They would play hide and seek with me sometimes, hiding behind the trees and the clouds but nonetheless, they always somehow appear again no matter where I am. I reasoned that it is because they think I am good company and a good friend thus them following me around.

As a child, when it rains and I am in the car, I always wondered why it rained and why does the water move upwards as the car moves?.. I reasoned as every other child would reason it. The God is sad, so when He cries, it rains. When He is angry and sad, it would rain accompanied by thunder and lightning. *shy* I have done my share in comforting God and asking Him not to cry. Heh... As for the rain moving up the windscreen, I just thought God enjoyed sucking back all the rain that poured. =/

All these thoughts are of course provoked by the thought that my days here in Malaysia are numbered. *sighs*..

午夜香吻 ..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: 20 days to go..

Signing out at 10.42pm..

For the nights I can't remember by Hedley

2010-08-26T01:11:00.001+08:00

One of my emo songs I've listened years back.
This song bring backs old memories.
And it also brings back feelings I felt then.
It's amazing how songs work.
Overall I am glad to be listening again.

For the nights I can't remember

Hedley

[Verse 1:]
I see it in the way you would do
When no one else could ever get through
Holding back til I come around
Time and time again you wait for me to comin'
And did you really look my way?
Cuz no one coulda seen this coming
I would never let you down
If I was running back working full time

[Bridge:]
So I can and I will and you'll see your hero come running
Over and over tonight

[Chorus:]
And I do wanna love you
If you see me running back
And I do wanna try
Because if falling for you girl is crazy
Then I'm going out of my mind
So hold back your tears this time

[Verse 2:]
Me, I'm used to being tired and bloody
But you believed that I could be somebody
You put your world on hold for me
Gave away to follow, feel you through the fire
I need you to know I will
Believe me girl I'm so tired of running
I just wanna hold your hand
Stare at you like you've got everything I need

[Bridge:]
And I can so I will and you'll see your hero come running
Over and over tonight

[Chorus:]
And I do wanna love you
If you see me running back
And I do wanna try
Because if falling for you girl is crazy
Then I'm going out of my mind
So hold back your tears this time

[Verse 3:]
And what if I never said to you I was dynamite
And what if I never told you I'm afraid to cry
What if I never let you down
And said I'm sorry for the nights I can't remember
What if I never said to you I would try

Yeah Yeah Yeaahh

[Chorus:]
And I do wanna love you
(If you see me running back)
And I do wanna try
Because if falling for you girl is crazy
Then I'm going out of my mind
So hold back your tears this time

[Repeat Chorus]

Hold back your tears this time

Ooooh Ooooh

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S : 23 days..

Signing out at 11.00am..

Fireless war..

2010-08-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Pic taken from http://sophistikatemurray.blogspot.com/2010/06/dream-catcher.html

In a war where either way,

both parties get hurt,

no one wins.

In a night with no light..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

P.S: 24 days more to go..

Signing out 12.05am..

Fragile life..

2010-08-24T01:37:00.003+08:00

Dragonfly
Oh so pretty
But so reckless
Slamming yourself against the wall
Risking your life flying near the fan
Soon you will break your pretty wings
May you Rest In Peace!

I like the way it hurts..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Kristine.

P.S: 25 days more to go..

Signing out at 1.42am..

Withered roses..

2010-08-23T18:41:00.006+08:00

Formerly so glorious,
Admired by all,
Centre of attention.
After its beauty withers away,
It's chucked away.
If it's lucky it will be kept.
But almost always forgotten.

Aim for the moon,
Shoot for the stars..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much love,
Kristine.

P.S: 26 days to go..

Signing out at 6.50pm..

The Ying Ker Lou Review..

2010-08-22T21:47:00.007+08:00

What do you do when you find yourself hungry and devastated from a bad day?

I reckon you go over to Ying Ker Lou Restaurant, in Gardens, Midvalley. It serves very heart warming dishes. The dishes brought smiles to our faces. Food for the soul.

In fact its almost similar to my mum's cooking, still not as good as my mum but it is still pretty darn good. There is this home cook feeling that comes with the dishes.

Ying Ker Lou is a restaurant that serves authentic Hakka dishes including Pun Choi (A dish that consist of a variety of food in one pot), Shun Pun Zi (Stir fried yam balls) and Lui Cha (A rice dish mix with vege and nuts with mint sauce)

The environment was not that bad. Sure it was slightly warm but then again our homes are always slightly warm too no?

Started my meal with a good pot of jasmine tea. To soothe oneself. Don't you think the pot is very unique? But due to the shallow pot, the tea got very harsh on the tongue. RM4/person. Depending on type of tea of course. :)

Nam yu pork slices. Nam yu is a type of fermented tofu that is reddish in colour. It taste a lil saltish thus giving the pork a little tang! Its crispy on the outside soft and chewy on the inside. Very nice chewing sensation in the mouth. Only one thing to criticize about it is that the pork slices they gave were kinda too fat. Would have been awesome if it wasn't too fat. =/

Soupy soft tofu with mince meat. AHh, this my friend is a divine. Maybe because I love tofu and it is not because I am a health freak but generally Asians love tofu. At first it was kind of tasteless, after complaining, we got a better tasting one. It's so good I ate it on its own without rice. :)

Its so good I have to put two pictures of it here! lol :P

Ginger and spring onion fish fillet. Fish fillet was pretty bland. The sauce taste pretty good but somehow the fish did not absorb it's flavours. This was just an OK dish for me. But it looks pretty good though!

Steam mince pork with tung choi. Tung choi is a type of preserved vegetable. It has a nice chewy texture. Nice to bite and not to mention, it has a delicious taste to it. Very appetising. This dish requires at least a 15 minute wait for it.

As for the desserts there wasn't much to choose from. Maybe the Hakka don't fancy sweet stuff. In fact their dessert is somewhat... spicy for my taste. Why?

Glutinous rice ball and Dragon fruit in ginger soup. It was so spicy, the 1st sip I took, it went straight to my ears. Pheeewww! That was some explosive taste. RM6/bowl.

Sweet potato and yam in ginger soup. This is a divine though still too spicy for my liking. Sweet potato was really sweet and the yam gave an interesting texture in the overall dish. Rm6/bowl.

Overall, I left that place a pretty satisfied customer. Overall the dishes we ordered fed 3 of us happily paying about RM37 per person excluding drinks and dessert. Not too bad if you find yourself willing to splurge on some Asian food. :)

Ying Ker Lou Restaurant
Lot S 231 & 232, Second Floor
The Gardens Midvalley City
Lingkaran Syed Putra
59200 Kuala Lumpur.
03-2284 8480.

When a tornado meets a volcano..

: §oŁЇtǺ®ÿ ®o§ě ::
C'est la vie..
♥ ♥ ♥

Much Love,
Solitary Rose.

P.S: 27 days more to go!

Signing out at 11.31pm..